Dedicated to ShayyLuvv_23

Loves' POV

Camila is the only one who knows the whole story, part of the reason we are best friends now. I remember she cried with me and never judged me. She helped me to become
" Love." I have changed so much, but this secret part of me is begging to be acknowledged before releasing me to truly be "Love" and accept love.

I am a fighter, and now I have to fight for me, no more running with that thought in mind; I begin to tell my secret.

"Part of the reason, well the reason we left from up north was because of me.

When I was 12, I had my first boyfriend. I dated him until I was 16. He was my first love and my best friend. We went to school together, hung out on the block together, and our families were close, so we were around each other most of the time."

I pause. I know once I get this story started, Temor may have questions I am scared to answer, but I go on...

" Only one person knew for sure about our relationship. We kept it a secret, but our friends knew what was up but didn't talk about it. My boyfriend told me when we grew up, we would get married. We promised each other that we would be the others' first and only love. And that it would always just be him and I.

Everything changed the summer I turned 16. I was up in my room sleeping. I thought my parents had left to go to work. The house was so quiet.Then I heard voices. I opened my bedroom door, and I could hear noises coming from the kitchen. I stopped to listen.  I heard a lady crying saying she couldn't believe it, she was going to kill him, how could he do that, now he would have to marry the girl.

I started bugging cause, for some reason, I thought the lady was talking about my father. I went into the kitchen and realized it was my mom and boyfriend's mom and she was talking about my boyfriend, who, of course, they didn't know was my boyfriend.

Since our parents didn't know we were in a relationship, they continued the conversation, just telling me not to repeat whatever I heard. Well, that afternoon, I heard it all.

My boyfriend had sex with this girl. He gave his virginity to this girl.

I stopped talking, lost in my own memories because the feelings still covered my heart even after all this time. It changed my life. I look at Temor, and he is holding my hand.

" I went back to my room and called my boyfriend. I asked him if it was anything he wanted to tell me. The whole time, I got this feeling like my blood was hot and my heart was racing, and my stomach felt sick.
He took a minute, so I told him not to lie to me, just to be honest.

Our fathers taught us that our word was our bond and loyalty to family was above everything. So I expected him to tell me the truth.

He said it wasn't anything. Do you have a girlfriend? I asked him straight up. He said, "No, Minah, only you, what's going on? Who's been in your ear Mami?"

Are you still a virgin? Did you have sex with someone? I asked, but he kept lying.

" Minah, baby, what's up? You know it is just you and me. I'm for you. I promised that will only happen when you are ready, and I can wait." That's what he said.

So I left it alone.

Until the day I saw them together.