"Lan Zhan, how can one be ashamed of porn? A lot of men read it," I said.

"You are so shameless, don't you ever just do what you're told?"

"Of course I do, why—"

"Wei Wuxian, you are the most shameless and annoying person on the planet, you do not listen, you mess around as you please, and you never consider those around you about your actions. If your parents were really still around, I am sure they'd be annoyed by your behavior too! Do not ever call me Lan Zhan, call me Lan Er Gongzi! I will make you write the rules one hundred more times if you do not sit down and do as you're told now!"

It was at that single moment, it was like my world no longer was seen in color but only in black and white, and it was no longer warm. Normally I do not care what people say or think of me, but when he said that, it hurt the most. I stood up from my spot at his desk and looked at him. The fact that he even brought up parents, saying such a thing.

Would that actually be true?

Would my parents love me for the person I am today?

Would they be okay with me?

"I-I-I ap-Apologize Lan-Lan Er Gongzi," I stuttered. I felt tears starting to form in my eyes and my heart was in pain, "I w-wo-nder if your mother w-would say the same to you."

Lan Er Gongzi was so stunned by my words in response but he also seemed like he regretted saying that immediately but I did not care. I refused to forgive him for this.

"Wei Ying,I—"

"Don't!" I yelled and grabbed my sword before storming out of the library. It was like my world no longer had oxygen and I was suffocating. I went to my guest room and grabbed my things. I did not want to spend another second in this sect. I thought maybe if he saw past my playful behavior he could see that I was actually looking for someone to really see me. I no longer want to be associated with the sects, especially the Jiang Sect. It's like my world was consumed by them and all I ever was, is a shield for their children. No more.

I then left the room after leaving a note:

Dear Jiang Wanyin and Jiang Yanli,

I am no longer going to be in this sect. Your mother has spent so many years just telling me that I do not belong in her family and I just now realize that I do not belong anywhere. I refuse to be associated with any one sect and I am done playing a shield for you and your family. My parents would not want me living this way. I am sorry I took so much and gave so little in return. I promise you, I will pay back my debt someday but for now, I am just going to disappear and never come back. Maybe one day I will return but for now, I am going to stay away and find my own happiness.

Wei Wuxian

I left it on Shijie's nightstand and left my guest house. I put my Qiankun pouch in my robes and my sword on my back and headed towards the main gate. As I headed towards the gate Lan Er Gongzi and Zewu Jun were there talking to the guards. I just wanted to ignore them.

"Wei Gongzi, where are you heading?" Zewu Jun asked.

"Is there a rule that says I cannot go to town?" I asked. I refuse to look at him or his brother.

"Well, no," Zewu Jun said, "but Wangji told me you walked out during your punishment. You are not allowed to leave until you finish it."

I turned to them and remained calm, "as of now, I am affiliated with no sect and you have no right to punish me. I secede the Yunmeng Jiang Clan and I do not have to do that stupid punishment if I do not want to," I told them.

"Wei Ying, get back inside and do your punishment, do not—"

"Lan Er Gongzi, as you said not to call you by your birth name, I advise you to do the same. You asked me to leave you alone and that is what I am doing. If you do not let me leave freely, I will fight my way out," I said angrily and it shut him up.

"Did something happen between you two?" Zewu Jun asked.

"Of course, I am the most annoying person on the planet. I am my mother's son. I am reminded everyday that I am so much like her when I haven't seen her since I was four or five. I do not even remember her face, let alone her voice. Since I am such a nuisance, I am not going to be a bother to anyone ever again. Then again, Lan Er Gongzi here told me that he questions if my parents would actually love me as the way I am," I replied and turned to leave.

"He told me, and it was uncalled for. Can you at least come back in to talk this out?" Zewu Jun said.

I removed Suibian from its sheath, "no, I am done talking, if you keep this up, I will fight!"

Lan Er Gongzi took Bichen out and began to attack me. I no longer decided to hide how well I could really fight. I did not follow the Jiang Sect Sword technique but I followed my own. Within a few moves I knocked Bichen from his hand and kicked him to the ground. Zewu Jun took over. My rage grew, and the next thing I knew, my sword stabbed into Zewu Jun's abdomen.

"Xiongzhang!" Lan Er Gongzi yelled and when by his side.

"Next time, I will kill anyone who gets in my way. I am done being nice. All I have done was try to be nice and all that it gets me is more pain. So this is what I have become and it all turned out this way because you, Lan Er Gongzi, had pushed me to my limit. I hope this is what you wanted. I am a nuisance anyway, right," I said and took off on Suibian.

I did not turn back. If I ended up being chased, then so be it. I turned out this way because of how I was treated, and no one will listen to me. I will go find someone who will listen, if I do not die first. I am so done with everyone, and I am not longer the happy and nice Wei Wuxian.

I flew until I got tired. I landed in the middle of nowhere and hid myself within the hallow of a tree. I placed a barrier around the entrance and it made it seem like I was invisible from the outside. It also kept noises from leaving the place. Jiang Disciples and Lan Disciples began searching for me by early the next morning. I changed my robes into pure black and bought a silver mask to hide my face.

I ended up at the boundaries of Yiling. The burial mounds were not that far away from where I stood. I walked up a nearby mountain and hid inside a cave. I put privacy wards and barriers around the cave entrance so no one could enter. I just hid there for a few days as I tried to think of something to do or somewhere to go. I just wished my parents were actually still alive. I was tired of fighting my battles alone.

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Well, A new Wangxian I can work on in my spare time. I will post when I can but I have other projects I have been working on and will continue to work on. Thank you for reading and will post more soon.