Navya's Pov

Me and Krish saw Piya and Shiva in the entrance. They're talking but I don't know what they're talking..

Piya do you know him? Krish asked her

No Krish. He said, I looked like his long lasting sister so he just confused. Nothing more, Piya said looking at me

After that Piya and me went to restroom. I asked Piya, What he asked you?

She asked, who?

You know who I'm asking, I said

Don't you hear when I said to Krish, she asked

Piya, I called

Shut up Navi, she said

Don't hurt him Piya, I said

Seriously you said this to me. You're the one who hurting him by rejecting him.. I heard what happens here before from Jeevika.. Don't you understand why he cancelled his engagement? She asked

I became silent..

I know you don't hear my words at all.. But know one thing you're not only spoiling your life it's also affect Shiva's too. I don't think Shiva will change in future too. Just tell him a truth Navi it's not late, she said and left. I sighed and went to office

This day is very hectic. Because of the annual plan my whole team is fully immersed in work. I don't have any time to spare any thoughts

I left to canteen where Arjun anna also present. He signalled me and I went to his table. Now a days we're not that much uncomfortable. He never talks anything personal. I sat opposite to him. He discussed about financial crisis

Some of the woman employees sat opposite to us. They didn't saw us.

Do you hear about our boss? One asked

Of course but I have a doubt? Another said

What? Another asked

Why boss cancel this engagement? She asked

Don't you heard another news? Five years before our boss marraige stopped,Another said

Is this true? Another asked

Not only that in that marriage bride cancelled their wedding, she said lowly

What?? Then that new is true? She asked

What? Another asked

That Arjun sir and Shiva sir is in relationship, she said hesitantly

I looked at Arjun guilty.. But he smiled at their comments. I was surprised why he didn't react?? I thought

It's not possible, another said surely

Why? he's also single then there must be a chance, she said

Who said he's single? I saw him with a girl, Another said

I looked at Arjun anna he too confused above their talk

She may be his friend or his relations, another said

Do you think I got confused about these things? I saw them very closely more like Intimately, she said

Where ? Another asked

In our office, she said

Is she employee in our office, another said

No but She's our employees friend, she said

Who? Another asked

Navya who works in Arjun sir team, she said

I was little bit confused what they're talking.. Arjun sir too

In fact I take their photo, she said showed her mobile to others

We too sneak into their picture.. I laughed because they showed Arjun anna and Piya's picture. Arjun anna standing dangerously close too her in that pic. I looked at Anna he's in hell anger. I controlled my laughter

Lucky girl, some girl said and sighed

So Arjun sir and Shiva sir wasn't in relation. Then why Shiva sir cancelled his marriage everytime. I mean he has everything rich, successful, most importantly handsome. Then why he's ...., another said

May be is impotent, another said

I was stunned at their talk what the hell are they talking?? Arjun anna too angered

Are you mad? Another asked

Then why do you think he's like this? First time that girl cancelled their marriage in fact some said that girl was not satisfied with him in bed that's why she cancelled their marriage. He never let any girl come to him not even for flirt. Don't you think something is fishy, she said

But this time he cancelled his engagement right? Another asked

Because he may fear that others may find he's impotent, she said

Because of me he's in this situation.. Piya is correct I spoiled Shiva's life too.

Will you shut up? Arjun shouted and walked towards them.

Don't you guys have any shame to talk ill about your boss, he shouted

Sir.. Sir I..... We.... Sir, they are shuttered

Just get out from my office don't dare to come here ever, he said and left that place.

I too silently left that place.. Go to my office.

There Arjun anna stand and fisted his hand

Do you think Shiva is happy? Arjun asked with the same anger

Anna... I mean sir... I, I shuttered

Why the hell you left him that day Navya? Do you know how he's after that? You shouldn't left him like that even for his own good, he said last words with much pressure

I looked at him shockingly how he know that..

I heard Karthik and yours conversation that day, he said

I don't know when tears dropped from my eyes

I don't know why you left him but whatever it is you shouldn't did that Navya. Shiva is living like a dead one. Never once I saw him smiled heartfully. Even those five years he just cheated him saying he hates you.. But truth is that idiot loves you every minute.. He loves you more than anything in this world Navya. If you say you left for his good then it's completely nonsense Navya, he said softly

Did shiva knows anything, I asked fearful

No, he said

But that idiot said he saw that same love in your eyes now too. That's the only reason he left the engagement and started to believe you, he said. I looked at him shockingly. That's why he behaves like that in restaurant

Do you know after you left him like that he's completely broken. You know how he values his family and his dad but he left everything that only for you. Even his own office employees, business partners, friends spoke ill about him saying gay, impotent like this. They're not even have any guts to at and before him but now they making fun of him. But he never once say anything bad about you. That time uncle wanted to share the news to reporters that you're the one who's having affairs with others that's why he cancelled this marriage. But Shiva never let him do that. He just accepted what others say. Do you know why he did that? He asked

Because of his love he never wanted to assassinate your character. Even he never let us to talk bad about you Navi that much he loves you... I was wondered why he's like? We can't see him in this pain Navya, he said

I don't know why you guys are having fate like this but I truly wish you guys can be together for life long and lead a happy life. I know it's impossible still...., he said and left

I decided to meet Shiva. So I followed Arjun anna. That's when we saw whole conversation between keerthi and Shiva's

Keerthi slapped me even talk ill about me but it's never bothered me. But why he left everything for me why the hell he can't forget me that's only thing in my head.. I did anything to make shiva's happiness with that thought I left that place. I cried thinking about our fate.

Navya, someone called me but I can say who he is from his voice. I looked at him with my crying face. I want to hug him and tell him the truth. But I know if I did then he never be happy once in his life ever. So I stand there silently.

Come Navya.. It's already late so I'll drop you, he said

It's okay sir.. I can manage, I said controlling my tears

Come on Navya, he said

No thanks sir, I said and started to walk..

He pulled my hand. Please Navya it's not safe, he said

Why do you care? I shouted at him..

Navya what's your problem? He asked

That's what I asked you? What's your problem? Why are you changing suddenly? I asked

Navi, he said. I always wanted to hear my name from him like this but now....

Don't call me like that Mr. Shiva I'm just your employee, I said

Okay Sorry mam. Please come it's not safe to go alone in this road and more importantly the weather is too bad, he said

You don't have to care for me sir, I said again moved. This time he pulled  me hard toward him. I placed my hand on his chest for that sudden force. The safest place I always felt.. I looked at him with my tearful eyes. Only thing I see is love... Love for me

Sorry Navi. I know Keerthi is wrong but..., he said that's when I come to reality..I pushed him back.

Keerthi is not wrong Shiva. Everything she said is true only.. Yes I'm the one who cheated on you for your money.., I said

I don't believe this nonsense anymore, he said... Why you're doing like this shiva? why you spoiled your life?I thought

Why?? I shouted

I.... I believe you, he said.

Believe me for what?  She asked.

He was silent..

See! you don't have a answer for that!, I said but deep inside I want him to believe me but why??

It's not a place to talk about that, let's go, he said

No! I want to know your answer, I said firmly

Navi! he said. I become emotional why he can't let me go from his life.

Just stop Shiva. You're spoiling your life for me, I said this time

I don't care about that Navi, he said

Are you mad Shiva? I asked

He remained silent.

Do you know what others are talk about you? They're calling you... I stopped because I don't know how to tell that but he must overcome from this with that i continued they're calling you gay, impotent like that Shiva. They're talking more bad about you. Why are you allowed them to calling you with those names Shiva? Please don't do this, I said slowly

So what do you want me to do Navi? He asked me just like that

Settle in your life Shiva married someone who loves you and care for you, I said but only I know how painful that words are

Then, do you marry me? He asked

I was shocked. I never expected this question from him. 

What are you asking Shiva? You know...... I'm....married then how can you? I shuttered

You only said this to me Navi. Married someone who loves you and care for you, he said..

Nothing is more cruel than this the one I love asked me to marry him but I....

Are you crazy what are you blabbering? I asked

Don't you love me? He asked

Shiva don't change..., before I said he stopped me

Answer me Navi, he said

Why are you killing me Shiva? How can i say that?

I looked down and shaked my head as no.  Tears flowed from my eyes

Words, he ordered

No, I said looking down.

Look at me and said your answer, he said. I already dead when I left you don't kill the dead one Shiva, I thought

No, I said looked his eyes. He smiled from that I know he already find my lies.

Okay, he said calmly.. I must make him say okay to that marriage.. With that determination I said, Marry her Shiva. You know how much Keerthi loves you. In fact she behaved to me like that for you Shiva

You don't have right on my marriage life, he said

Shiva! I shouted

Don't Shout Navi. Truth never change for your shouting, he said

What truth? I asked

Your love for me, he said. I was shocked and don't have any answer

Don't believe useless things, I said

Useless things?? He asked

Yes, I said firmly

Let's see, he said and move towards me slowly.

Wh... What, I shuttered and moves backward.  Suddenly rain too started he snaked his hands around my waist.

Shi... Shiv.. Shiva, I said. His Closeness always makes me feel week.. He placed his thumb on my lips.

Why are you doing this? He asked me slowly and closed the gap between us. My face is just an inch from hers

I miss you, he said slowly. .. Just like that my determination too went. I cried looking at his eyes. I missed him every second in these years. I want him, I want my Shiva back. I don't want to loose him. With that thought I closed my eyes unknowingly  give up on my plan. He pressed his lips on my forehead.. I just want earth to be stop around. I hugged him. It feels eternity to us. No one is moved. But deep inside I believe we too have happy ending. And I don't want to leave him for anyone

He slowly asked me, Even now too you think you don't love me?

That's when I come to reality. What the hell I'm doing? If I'm behaving like this then how can I expected him to hate me.

I abruptly pushed him.

Wh... What.. are you doing? I asked.

I believe you Navya more than myself. I believe your eyes. It's tell me you love me now too, she said confidently.
The only thing I want to hear from him past these years.

Where's your trust on me goes Shiva 5 years before?  Did you not see this love that day? Or you closed your eyes? This time I asked truthfully I know I'm the one who make him believe that I'm bad but deep  I don't want him to let me go on that day.

I going to regret that my life long, he said slowly.. I eyes only shows pain it's make feel very pain

For a minute no one said anything. I only blame my fate.

It's all past Shiva and it's not your mistake too. Believe me or not it's all true I'm not that trust worthy. To be truth I'm characterles....before I  said he stopped  me

Navi please don't talk like that. I don't even going to believe that, he said. Love you love you love you da I wanted to shout this words to him at this minute. But reality is far long....

It's your wish. But that's true. Now I have my family and I'm living happily with them.., i said

Don't lie, he said.

What? I asked

You're not happy Navya, he said confidently

Did he knows something? I thought

What do you mean by I'm not happy..., I asked

Again it's your eyes. I believe your eyes, he said

That's it all my anger raised. If talk him softly then he never left me and live his life

Hey.... What do you want ah?? Don't you understand my words? Why are you behaving like a loser? Why are you  acting like you know me better? Don't you want to live happily? Why are spoiling your life for me? I asked pulling his collar.

Navya... I, he said but I stopped him

Don't utter anywords. Do you know how much Dev love me he never split from me even a second no one get son like him.. I'm very happy with him. And krish he's the best husband that everyone could want. Do you know how much he loves his wife and  how much he take care of he...., I stopped coming to what I talking he looked at me keenly.

I mean me. Do you know how much he care for me... No one even you can't better than him, i said looking into his eyes..

Do you think I'm lying now, I asked confidently because All my words are true Dev can't live without me even I'm too. No one is best partner than Krish. His love for her his wife is unimaginable. He care for me truly and stands for me always

He was silent.

Please let me go out of your life. Live yours. Yes you're true. I'm not happy because of you. After I saw you that guiltiness killing me every second. If you really want me to be happy, then please move on your life. Do you how much is hurting even looking at you? I said kneeling in the ground crying losing all my strength. I don't want to see him in pain... I don't want to be barrier for his life. I want to see his happiness his pure happiness... That's enough for me. I poured my all pain in my crying. Krish comes to the place kneeled down to my level.

I'm in pain Krish. This pain killing me every second.  I'm very bad that's why I always make my loved one life miserable. I spoiled his life and his happiness. I loss my parents and my best friend. I'm the reason for your miserable too. I'm the reason for Dev loss. I don't want to live this life krish. I want to be dead. I just want to be dead krish..... I cried hugging him. krish removed his coat and covered me with that. He hugged me.

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