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Cloudstar(male) gray fur with white spots
Thunderwind (female) White pelt with black lightningbolt mark on her chest. It's hidden with all her fur and blue crystal eyes.
Talonclaw(male) brown fur with black spots
Snowhawk (female) white pelt with brown stripes down her back
Graypelt(female) light Gray pelt with white muzzle and underbelly. Black legs and ears with three black dots under each eye along with one on her forehead
Wildpaw (female) light brown fur with two paw markings on her cheek, with blue eyes
Firetail(male) orange fur with red tail
Hawkkit(male) brown fur with white stripes down his back
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Thunderwind's pov

"Thunderwind! Wake up! Come on, please! It's about Wildpaw, Hawkkit and Cloudstar!"

I was rudely awaken by a terrified Graypelt, as she was prodding my side with her paws.

"What is it?"
"Cloudstar.... H-he's dead! Talonclaw found him in a small clearing, not that far from camp, this morning!"

I sprang to my paws and flew out the den.
'No! Cloudstar!'

My eyes were horrified at the sight I saw.
In the middle of camp was Cloudstar, his throat and stomach ripped out that his insides were coming out.

His eyes were scratched out as well along with his ears that were missing.
I couldn't even recognize him as his fur was drenched in blood. His fur had large spots of red all over.

"W-who would do such a thing like this?! Cloudstar," I wailed out, running over to him.
'...I'm barely a warrior.....my mentor was murdered.... I'm barely deputy and I already have to be leader...'

I wanted to bury my face into his fur but that wasn't possible....

"Thunderwind.... There's something else too.... Wildpaw is missing."

I whipped around towards Graypelt, with widen eyes.
"What do you mean she's gone?!"

"That's the reason Talonclaw found Cloudstar.... He went looking for her but found him instead..."

My eyes held fear in them and I glanced around camp before realizing that Snowhawk was being surrounded by some of the warriors.

"...You mentioned something about Hawkkit?"

Graypelt stared at the ground, avoiding eye contact with me.
".....It's Hawkkit... Talonclaw found his blood in a fox trap by Cloudstar. There was no body. We're thinking that Hawkkit decided to explore the wilderness in the night and Cloudstar saw him leaving. In result, he went after the kit, and Cloudstar caught him in the clearing. Then from there, a fox appeared, killed Cloudstar and well Hawkkit might have tripped into the fox trap which later he was ripped out of it by the fox."

Thunderstar listened to her story, her nose and whiskers twitching as she felt that something was wrong.
"No.. the fox would have taken them both and if not, it would have taken cloudstar than Hawkkit... besides! Wouldn't the guard see them?!"

Graypelt scoffed softly and her tail automatically pointed towards Gingerpelt who was being comforted by his mate, Firetail.

I hissed, and stormed right over to Gingerpelt.
"What in starclan happened?!"

Firetail stepped in front of his mate, protecting him from my wrath.
"He already feels guilty, Thunderwind! He had a long day yesterday, which is why he fell asleep. Besides, we all know you shouldn't be leader. You're much too young and inexperienced! We should pick a new leader!"

A few warriors agreed with him, stepping forward.

I closed my eyes, unsheathing my claws as I was under a great deal of pressure.
"Shut up... Shut up. Shut up. SHUT UP," I yelled after quietly whispering those words, getting louder every second.

The whole clan went quiet, letting me think.

"Cloudstar appointed me as deputy. And that's it. I will become leader and will appoint the new deputy at sunset! Anybody who is against me being leader, can leave! I will follow Cloudstar's order to my death. Talonclaw, let's go to the moonstone. Now," I ordered with seriousness laced into my words.

The tom nodded, waiting for me at the exit of camp.
"....Snowhawk, I know you're suffering. And I promise you, the second I appoint the deputy, I will start preparing search parties for your brother. He can't be dead. Is that understood? Also, I leave Silverpelt in charge. For now."

Snowhawk gratefully smiled at me, before being surrounded by loved ones again.

I padded after to Talonclaw, sighing.
"Let's get this over with."

~Timeskip to when they get back and are appointing a new deptuy~

"From what I have seen today, I see that most of you aren't capable of leading the camp with me. The only one I see with leadership is Graypelt. I say these words before StarClan, so that the spirits of our warrior ancestors may hear and approve of my choice. The new deputy of Lighteningclan is Graypelt."

Everycat was shocked but Graypelt grinned at me.

"W-what? Her-"

I hissed, putting my paw down.
"Do not disrespect my decision. You all aren't capable of being deputy. Graypelt stayed calm and advanced quickly to being a warrior. Neither of you did. That is my choice and it's final."

I hopped down from highrock, smiling at Graypelt before retreating to my den.
'.... Skunktail was missing from this clan meeting. Something is up.'

I approached the nest, scenting Cloudstar and fell asleep, smiling.
'I hope I get to see him in my dreams... Especially Wildpaw.... Is she gone or dead....'
Everything went pitch black.

~Another timeskip to a moon later~

It had been half a moon since we stopped looking for Wildpaw and Hawkkit. I can't believe she left us..she left me and poor Hawkkit. His life ended to soon... On the other paw, I have met a tom.
We met one night while I was on a walk.

We spoke for awhile, talking about our interests and it seemed we had a lot in common.
I know I'm not aloud to have kits but I badly wished to have them.

I always wanted a family...

I was meeting him tonight again. We met up every night for the past moon. He was a good friend of mine and he always cared for me. Hopefully he doesn't think we're something else.

I came back to reality, seeing Blaze in front of me.

He had blueish gray fur with two patches shaped like bolts on his cheeks, they were both white.

"Hey Blaze! I'm so happy to see you again. Wanna go for a walk?"

He didn't answer me back, just staring at me with a heated look in his eyes.

I had bad feeling in my guts. It was telling me to run away, but I couldn't. I was stuck.

Blaze stalked over to me, his tail brushing down my back.
"Thunderstar~. I have a proposal. Mate with me," he purred out.

I stared at him with shock,
"W-what? No! We're just friends," I exclaimed.

He didn't pay attention to me and well I should have been paying more attention, because the next thing I knew was that I was laying flat on my stomach and my tail was pushed out of the way from my snatch.

Blaze purred softly, as I couldn't move or even respond.
'Im being raped....'

That was the only thing on my mind as he stole my virginity from me.
I felt dirty and disappointed.

I was raped by a loner.
How?

I was later found by Graypelt the next morning. She stared at me in horror as she could easily tell I was raped.
We didn't speak at all the whole way to the lake, and then to camp.

My mind was processing what Blaze told me.
Either we became mates, or he would attack the clan. I couldn't risk him doing that... So I said yes. I can't believe it. My best friend raped me....
Once Graypelt and I were at camp, I told the clan that I had got jumped by some rouge and well he attacked me, but I fought him off and passed out.

They easily believed my lie and left me to bask in my guilt.
I knew I would eventually be expecting his kits... After all, I was in heat.... Who knows?.....

Okay, yes. That is a bit much... And I shouldn't be writing about this and that's not okay. Rape is not okay. If you get raped, speak up to a trusted adult. Like the police, doctor, or a therapist and your parents. Okay? I sorta of got raped and well I haven't told anybody and well im scared too because I practically encouraged it until I regretted it. Don't be like me and speak up. Rape is not good. Nobody should touch you down there. Not even a girl. (Unless it's like a doctor appointment for your vagina check up or whatever. But you know what I mean. Ciao.
Dove out~