My friendly reminder of the pain.
A constant dose of things will always be the same.

Wanting so badly to beg you not to go,
but I know that I can't make you stay.
Deep down I knew things would go this way.

My books dedicated to goodbyes.
Painted pictures I draw within the lines.

It's sad how you never really know how you feel until then. At that exact moment it hits you because your heart knows it's the end.

I wanted to tell you how you woke me up,
made me feel alive.
I had become such a walking routine,
just to survive.

How I looked forward to each day, anxiously
awaiting for the things you'd say.

If only you could've seen the smiles you caused
Among other things.. so many feelings I loved.

The feelings I swore I'd never have again
Looks like you made me a liar because they happened.

None of that will ever matter.
You're not mine and forbidden
but I gave in and I faltered.