Kyles POV
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I ended up finishing my homework and then Stan's mom came and I told her everything that happened at school so she could be updated. She thanked me for it and the food which I felt pretty good about and then I was able to go home. I don't know why but every time I try to hide my feelings for him or try to avoid thinking about him. I feel it harder and I fall deeper in love with him. It's so tiring. I'm so tired of him loving her instead of me. I knew this would happen. He's been like this since third grade and we're in our junior year yet he still loves her. I know I shouldn't be thinking like this and just be glad that he has someone but we all want what we don't have. I took s shower and changed into some pajamas and went to bed. I don't want to be thinking about this so I'm going to sleep.

Stan's POV
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(At school),

Needless to say I felt better than ever. Whatever Kyle did. I felt healthy, in fact way too healthy. I was walking along side him and I just about to get into the other topic when Wendy puts her arms behind me causing me to jump towards the side and I end up knocking Kyle down to the floor with me. I have no idea as to why I did that. Were they instincts? Whatever. As I fought with my thoughts if I was right or not I felt a a jump below me. " hey Stan..can you....y'know....get off. You're squishing me. Plus everyone is staring and this looks gay" I looked down and turned scarlet red. I was on top of him and my arms were on both sides of Kyle's face. I quickly got up and he brushed himself off and we laughed about it. " sorry dude I didn't mean to do that". He smiled reassuring me that it was okay. We talked as we were walking together in the hallways but then departed to our classes.

( time-skip to lunch)

Once class was over, I was sort of frustrated that what happened this morning had been on my mind all day. Even Wendy tried to pass notes to me but I was completely in a trance. I had to make it up for ignoring her so I had to sit at the girls table. It bothers me so much because I don't have anyone to talk to. You can't bond as much with the girls than with the guys. I haven't even hung out with them in a while. Ever since I started dating Wendy my social life had gone down the drain. It's like we're a married couple and I don't want it to be that way. Not yet. But I still love Wendy so I'm obviously gonna go with her. She talked to me the whole lunch period and I did too and she kissed me and all but I wasn't feeling it today. I miss my friends. I remember when I was so obsessed with her and threw up if I talked to her. It's like that spark went away. I don't know. I felt Kyle's table eyeing me and I felt bad that I wasn't there and I was instead here. I'm going to make it up to him. When lunch was over I went to my final classes so that I could ask Kyle if I could hang out with him today.

(Time skip to end of the day)

Finally! Oh, thank god that was over. I sprang out of my seat and ran through the crowds to find Kyle. I see him getting his stuff out and he turns to see me and I run towards him. " hey dude what's up?" I look at him closing his locker. His strands of red curly hair popping out of his green Ushanka hat. His beautiful hazel eyes that I could get lost in. Now I know most people think that fully colored eyes are wonderful,l but hazel eyes really attract me. The difference between Kyles eyes from someone else's eyes is that he has very sparkly hazel eyes. Wendy just has brown eyes so I don't care much for them. you could barely see the color. Her eyes almost look black, except her eyes aren't black. Don't get me wrong I don't find brown eyes unattractive, it's just they aren't as interesting to look at that's all. He has pale skin but not so pale that it's sensitive to sunlight. "stan? STAN?" I was shaken from my thoughts and blushed. " oh sorry dude I kinda zoned out." he laughed and playfully hit my arm. " it's cool dude so what did you want to ask?" I blushed and fidgeted with my hands. " oh yeah are you doing anything today?" he stayed quiet, thinking about it for a while and shot up. " OH, we're going to the carnival in town tonight!" and I was about to ask to go but then thought back on what he said. we? who's we? " what do you mean by 'we' Kyle?" I asked. we were getting on the bus by this point and sat at the very back. " Craig's gang and my gang". I smiled but looked down. I remember when it used to be known as "Stan's gang" guess not anymore. I didn't want to ask to go because I thought they'd just let me join them so I'll head down there later. " oh that's cool" I said and he just nodded. " he didn't even ask me if I wanted to go. whatever. The bus dropped me off at the stop and I walked home by myself. everything feels weird. I feel like there's a wall between me and my friends and lately, I've been noticing the smallest details of Kyle. Like today when I asked him questions. what's going on with me? I get home and play on my phone. Not bothering to do my homework. I never do homework anyways. I've also noticed that In my group chats with everyone, nobody texts them anymore so I don't bother to go there. I ate dinner and played video games until it' was night time then I headed down to the carnival. When I get there I see the whole gang, so I decided to head over towards them. " hey guys mind if I join?" they all looked at me and then they went back to talking again. what the fuck? " hello? I asked if I could join?" extending the" n" part." Hey jew, did you invite lover boy to join us?" said Cartman while eating an elephant ear. " no I didn't" wait what the fuck is going on." I don't know, you going to ditch us again out of the blue if Wendy miraculously shows up?" I looked at them in confusion and then brushed it off. " c'mon guys I'm your friend, why are you being like this, just because Wendy is my girl and all, that doesn't mean I replaced her with you." I noticed Kyle looked away and everyone looked down. Craig, Kenny, Token, and Cartman all looked at me angry then Craig got closter to me. " You really dont get it do you? You aren't hanging out with us. We all decided on that after you blew us off so many times we had enough Stan. Sorry im being such an asshole right now, but you aren't part of our group anymore and we even made a group chat without you." What the fuck, Kyle are you hearing this? I've had just as much to do with this group than you Craig so I don't know why you're acting like the leader of the group and last time I checked, you didn't like us. I looked at Kyle to see if he would stick up for me but he didn't. What a jackass. " Kyle, C'mon, tell them that I have just as much to do with the group as everyone else." I looked at him pleading he will but he shook his head. " sorry Stan I need to buy my tickets." What a traitor. " I told you Stan, for the past years you've been blowing us off so now i'm going to do what we all should have done in the first place, you are no longer friends with us so don't talk to us, don't ask for us, and don't even look at us because you need to learn that you can't be doing these types of things. Sorry Stan but you need to leave right now. You're wasting our time". I can't believe this, my own friends Threw me off. They have abandoned me and nothings ever hurt more. Especially my super best friend Kyle, who just left me like that. Which explains why he didn't invite me. This hurts. I was angry because Cartman is a huge asshole and yet they hang out with him more than me. Was this seriously all of my fault? " you know what, fuck you, fuck all of you. I don't need faggot friends like you who just do this type of crap to others without having the capability of understanding my prespective. Screw you Craig and Token and Clyde and Tweek and Jimmy and Kenny and Butters who I can see you've all replaced me you cunt bags and fuck you Cartman and especially you Kyle, you fucking pussy. I don't need any of you anways I have Wendy and at least she isn't a traitor like all of you scum bags. Have a fan-fucking tastic night because I'll go but just know that I don't need any of you and it was a mistake to befriend you. Goodbye". Everyone looked mad but craig laughed. " Bye we won't miss you." I stomped away and when I was at a far distance everything had hit me like a truck. I started to tear up and I ran into the forest and let it all out. I can't believe they just threw me out like that. They don't understand that Wendy gets mad If im not mostly spending time with her and she threatens to leave me if I don't hang out with her. I cried. I cried very very hard. On the cold floor in the forest. At night. I didn't mean what I said to Kyle, I knew he was tired of me too. I had hurt him previously and I did it again. God im such a fuck up. It was my fault though. I should have at least explained my situation instead of insulting them. Now I lost the only thing that kept me going. My friends. It honestly hurts really bad. My friends, gone because of my stupidity. I couldn't believe it. This can't be real. This is all a nightmare that sooner or later I'll wake up from and I'll be having fun with them later on. I kept trying to convince myself that it was all a terrible dream but no matter how hard I tried I knew deep down that this isn't a dream and that I lost all of my friends. And that they've tried to get rid of me and finally did it. I was the one dragging them down. I kept crying there and when I ran out of tears to cry I sat there with a blank expression. I lost everything. At least I have Wendy, right? she would never do me dirty like that. I tried to think of the positive. but it's hard. I hate being such a sensitive fuck. It's annoying. I walked home upset and when I did I bumped into shelly. At this point I feel so broken anything would make me cry. " watch where you're going fuck up!" she shoves me and my head hits the door. I run up the stairs and slam the door before anyone could come in. Shelly just came back from college since she has break so im stuck with her. Shes changed a right but her attitude towards me has not. I don't even know what I did for her to hate me. I looked through my closet for alcohol but to my surprise I found none. I checked through my drawers and nothing. Which means I probably drank it all. Mom and Dad were asleep and Shelly was glued to the television so I went to the kitchen and rumagged through the fridge. When I didn't find anything I went back and stood in front of the tv for no reason.