1. I have to finish every book I start
2. Looking at a halfway, bookmarked book, realizing I don't know how it ends, sends words spinning in my head
3. Even if it's the worst book I ever read
4. I have to know the ending
5. I have to stay in this relationship that I have with you
6. I know that sounds like I am being forced to be in it but I want to be in it with you
7. I want nothing more than you and I in the end
8. It's just hard to want something when it's spinning in my head
9. "We are going to end"
10. But I have to know the ending
11. I have to know if we are ending
12. I have to see us to the end
13. Even if the pain I go through makes this the worst relationship I ever had