I've started doing things by myself.
Not in the typical way-
I've always been independent.
Too independent that I never ask for help and don't understand when people ask for my help.
I've been forced to do things by myself or miss out.
Standing in event line between friend groups.
Praying no one sits next to me in the empty seat in movie theaters.
Being the person at a concert alone that if I was with company, I'd mentally judge for being a loner.
I want to say I'm so proud of myself for not missing out.
That I enjoy my company and I'm having a better time doing everything on my own time.
But that would be a lie.
And I can't lie.