Am I... Am I hyperventilating?

"Nico..." Hazel grabs my arms and stand me up as I stare at my forearm, and pulls me away.

She sat me down on a rock and lifted my chin so that I was looking at her. I didn't know I was crying until the wind blew, and she wiped my cheeks.

"Hey, it's okay. Will?" she asks.

I nod.

"Okay. Look, it's gonna be okay-"

I was shaking. I shook my head. I don't believe it.

Number three.

I've been through it so many times, what'll happen now? Another death? Will he cheat?

"Hazel, I-I c-can't-" I can't finish.

"Take some deep breaths, you're nearly hyperventilating."

I look past Hazel, and the group of friends seem a little concerned but go about their own business. Except Will; Will is rubbing his arm, and staring up at me.

"Don't look at them, look at me." Hazel instructs.

I look back up at her. "Hazel, why..." I start crying again.

Hazel hugs me, and I close my eyes, burying my nose in the nook of her neck.

No. I'm not okay.