Why is she here? My hearts beating rapidly inside my chest. I'm pacing back and forth in my room. Combing my fingers through my hair. I'm disoriented and confusion hits me full force.

She's my demise. I've loved her forever and she broke the spirit of my love for her in on one frustrating long night.

How can I ever forgive her for that?

I know we were young but I knew what my heart wanted. What my brothers wanted and it was all summed up in one word, her.

The devastation she brought forth I could never forgive.

My brothers have a different opinion and blame me. I can't fault them though, I blame myself also but for different reasons.

I blame me for not seeing the signs, I should've known she didn't love me enough. Love us enough. I should've seen right through it. But I was a fool. A love sick fool!

My door opens and my brother Blue comes in. Closing the door behind him. I'm not in the mood to deal with him. I stomp over to my bed and sit. Waiting to hear his lecture I am sure he is here to give.

I look at him and wait. He's pacing and I'm sure he's trying to accumulate the words to say to me.

Fuck! I just don't need this now!

"You got to let it go Denny. You know as well as we do that you were to young. Far too young. She said no, for more reasons than you think. You know her as well as we do. You knew her situation. You also knew how we felt. Yet you just couldn't stop yourself ,yet again, you do what you always want!" He thinks I'm spoiled. That I didn't think about their wants or cares or about their stupid plan!

"How can you forgive her so easy? She broke our hearts!" Trying to sound firm in my convictions.

"No Denny, you did! You broke our hearts! You didn't listen. You didn't care! You thought about yourself! Not about me or Forest. Not about how we felt. You and only you are to blame!" He's screaming at this point. I understand I hurt them. They just can't understand how she hurt me. How I feel. They never will.

"She wasn't ours Blue! We never told her our plan! We never told her how we all feel! You should be thanking me, I forced her hand to show us how she felt and she dumped on our feelings!" I'm seething at this point.

"No she didn't! She dumped on your feelings and that's why your so butt hurt! But you're holding on to this resentment for her; when you know, as well as I do, that it wasn't because she didn't love us!" I've held on to this anger for years. But for me it's just not that easy to forgive and forget. To move on. She crushed me! I just can't seem to get pass that!

"Just leave Blue, I'm not in the mood to argue over her. I think she's done enough to us already, just go!" He looks at me. His expression says it all, he thinks this is all on me.

"You're a complete dumb ass, you know that? You're going to let the best thing that's ever happen to you, to us, to walk out that damn door and out of our lives, again! Just because she told you no when she was seventeen. Seventeen Denny! She was a too young! Don't you see that!? Or are you to damn spoilt? You hold on to a grudge that doesn't make any damn sense at all!" He stomps to door and slams it. The boom echoing through my room.

I feel like shit!

She's back and it's only taken hours for her to get in between my brothers and I and for what? Nothing, that's what! Ugh! That damn woman!

Sleep doesn't come easy that night.

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The next morning I'm up and ready for work. I head to the kitchen and there she is. Sitting on the counter, drinking coffee, dressed in a long shirt with nothing but her panties underneath. I see the outline of them from her shirt. She has her head down. In her other hand she holds her phone. She hasn't noticed me, yet.

I go to get a coffee and unfortunately, it's right beside her.

"Morning," she says not looking away from her phone. I ignore her. The ass that I am. "I'm sorry Denny, I know you don't want me here. I'm searching for a place to say," she holds up her phone. "I'll be out of hair as soon as can." She gets off the counter and sits down on the kitchen chair. I turn to her. Drinking my coffee.

"Good, the sooner the better." I tell her with a smirk. I just want her gone.

"Fuck off Denny! You have no say in this, it's two to one, in our favor!" Forest tells me as he comes into the kitchen. He's not mad just stating a fact. He bends over and kisses Lannie on her cheek. "Good morning, flower, sleep well?"

Oh for Christ sakes!

I pour my coffee out and slam my mug on the counter.

"Knock it off Denny! It's too early for this bullshit!" Blue tells me as he enters the kitchen also. He bends down and kisses Lannie on her forehead. She looks up and smiles at him. "What ya doing?" He ask her as he peers at her phone over her shoulder.

"Looking for a house to rent in my price range. The sooner the better, right?" She quirks at him. He looks at me and scowls.

"Nope, pipsqueak you're staying here and please don't argue with me about it, this is your home now, with us." Oh hell no! She looks at me then back to Blue.

"I don't think that's a good idea Blue. I think I've caused enough trouble. I don't want to see y'all fight because of me." How gracious of you!

"You're staying, end of story. Some people just need to get use to the idea and deal with it." Forest tells her while looking at me.

"Thanks guys but I think I'll pass. As soon as I find something I'll leave. But thank you both so much for helping me. I so appreciate it, more than you will ever know." She gets up and goes to her room. Once she's gone my brothers turn to me and show me their displeasure. I don't give a fuck! She needs to go.

"Don't look at me like that. It was bad idea from the start. You both know this. I don't give a fuck if she goes, it's only you two who do." I want to make myself perfectly clear.

"You will never change, you're an asshole, just like her fucking brother!" Blue yells as he storms off.

I turn to Forest. He's seething. But I don't care. The sooner she's gone the sooner things can get back to normal.

"Denny, you're my brother and I love you. But what you're doing right now, will only cause me and Blue to hate you! Don't you think you've done enough? Let. It. The. Fuck. Go!" Then he storms off. I've managed to clean out the room in no time and feel guilty as fuck now. Why? Why? Does she torment me? She's driving me mad.

I have to think of a way to get her out of here. One way to make her leave.

I smile as I decide what to do.

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"Hey Stella, is your friend busy tonight?" I ask my secretary as I enter my office. She's in her forties. She's prickly but a hard worker. Her friend is Carla or Casey something like that. She's been wanting me to take her out for the longest time. She's beautiful, but not my type. I'm going to use her tonight to run Lannie off. She doesn't have to know that though. Anything to get her out of our home and lives.

"I can see, I'll give her call, she will be so happy you finally agreed." Stella smiles and goes to call her. I go into my office to start the day. An hour later she comes back and tells Carla, that's her name, would love to go. She gives me her number and I call to set up the fake date. I'll meet her at my club. Take for her drinks. Then take her home to meet Lannie. Maybe then she will see she's not wanted and leave. Maybe then I will have peace.

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A little after midnight

Carla and I stumble in the door. We've had a little too much to drink. We're laughing and barely standing. I look for Lannie. I don't see her anywhere.

We stumble to my room, I trip and Carla catches me. We're right in front of Forest door.

"Woah there sweetie, which one is your room?" I point but my direction is off. I point at Forest door. She reaches for the handle, then stops. We hear moaning coming from the room. I sober up quick. Forest never brings anyone home. I grab the doorknob and sling open the door. I stumble and Carla catches me from behind. She giggles. Then

What I see floors me!

Forest and Lannie are about to have sex!

"What the fuck!" I scream. Forest jumps off of Lannie and covers her up. I'm seeing red. Blue comes crashing in the room, wondering what's going on. Carla stands there dumbfounded.

"Get the fuck out!" Screams Forest literally steaming.

Lannie brings the cover over her head and moans.

"What the fuck are you doing?" "Why her?" "Why her Forest!" I scream. Im heart broken. I've never been jealous over my brothers but I'm damn sure jealous over this.

"Did you fuck her?" I walk over to his bed. Looking down at them. Furious beyond believe. "Did. You. Fuck. Her?!" I don't know why I fucking care; but I do.

"No! You clearly stop me! Now get the hell out!" I storm out pass Blue and Carla. I turn to Carla and grab her hand. "Come on!" As I storm to my room. Im about to screw Carla just for vengeance. She yanks her hand away before we make to my room. I turn to look at her. "Im calling a cab. Sorry but I am not a default fuck." Then she walks away. Wtf? I go to my room and slam the door. I pace back and forth. Fuck! I still love her. I still want her! That should be me and not him! For some fucked up :reason I just can't take it.

I go back to Forest room. I walk in uninvited not caring. Blue is still there talking to Forest. They both turn to me. Lannie isn't here.

"Where did she go?"

"You ran her off fuck face; she's in her room." I turn to go to her room but Blue grabs my by my arm.

"Leave her alone. You've done enough." Me! She was the one about to fuck my brother. What have I done?

" I didn't do shit! Dumb ass over there was the one about to her fuck her, blame him!" I turn to Forest "Is she good? Was she everything you wanted? Did you get her out of your system? Because I'm going to march in her room and throw her slutty ass out! Hoped you had your fun!" I don't make to her room.

Forest punches me and sends crashing against the door. He gets on top of me and continues to punch. He's not letting up. Im seeing stars. Blue pulls him off but he's still trying to get to me.

"Shut your fucking mouth! Don't talk about her that way! She's a fucking virgin! She's not a slut! You asshole!" He's spitting his words. Mad doesn't even describe what he is. Then we hear a car start. We stop and look at each other. All the fighting forgotten. We all to the run the front door. Only to see Lannies taillights going down the road. At high rate speed.

I fucked up again!

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