Small little rant here

Ok so we were looking at our assignments for Track and Field

(I got 400 m on the Medley and Shot Put)

I was there w/ hopelessromantic393 and Eliz_Ono btw

And I noticed that dirtyburg623 had gotten ONLY long jump

While this other kid got 2 running events

I thought it was unfair so I said "this is such crap!"

And our track coach decided to come up behind us at that very moment

Which was not good

So she got mad at us

And I tried to explain to her that I didn't mean that the assignments were crappy

I meant that I didn't understand why dirtyburg623 got a field event, while another kid got 2 running events

It didn't seem fair

I say things like that when I don't understand something (which is why you'll hear me swearing a lot during school)

So now hopelessromantic393 and Eliz_Ono got pulled into my problems

I'll go apologize to my coach tomorrow and tell her that they had nothing to do with my outburst

Ugh

I hate this so much

We both made assumptions on what the other person meant

And that's okay

(Lmao I have to keep telling myself that I will not throw a hissy fit over this)

I'm stressed over this

I hope she won't get mad at me again

And suddenly this explodes into me spiraling into panic induced sadness

Thanks life

I'll give you a big ass helping of FUCK YOU

Ugh

So my mother is deciding to send me to TKD

Which SUCKS

I cannot describe to you how much I hate this damn class

I hate it so much I'd rather throw up than go

The only problem is, I can't find a suitable way to throw up

I tried sticking my fingers down my throat

Watching other people throw up

Drinking salt water

I'd rather have my nails ripped off than go to TKD

I'd rather have my left arm cut off than go to TKD

I'd rather get burns on my back than go to TKD

I hate it so much

I hate piano

I'm pretty sure I hate my parents

I mean, I want to love my parents

That's what any good child would do

But I can't find it in myself to love them

It's like, you know what you have to do, and you want to do it

But you just can't

It's like trying to fly

You know you have to have, a light skeleton, things to combat drag and gravity

And you want to fly

But you can't

It's just

An impossible task

Oh lord this is so angsty

I'm sorry, I wrote this really late at night

:/