I have to spend like 5 days at my grandparents house

I always feel guilty

Because I want to be doing other things

So I do the other things to make myself feel better

But it makes me feel worse after

And I have a headache

And I used to have panic attacks at their house because I was afraid of dying there

But now I don't?

Mostly because I stay up so late

Because I'm paranoid

And I'm slightly pissed

Because NicoB won't update P5

So the update it probably gonna come today

And I'm not going to be able to watch it

Ugh

Also I need more ships to write fanfiction about

For the other book

Hahahahahaha

Sitting here being kickass

Drinking cold hot chocolate

And spaghetti

aNd wAITING FoR NICOB TO UPDATE P5

Pls, how hard is it to play a game you like

Cri

So now I'm rewatching Mathas play Project Zomboid

So yeah

I can only hope a P5 video comes while I can watch it in the car on the way to my grandparents' house

Now I have to practice piano

Ugh

I hate doing what my parents tell me

I sound so bitchy and cliche kill me

But I seriously hate piano and TKD

I've been doing both for around 9 years now

My parents said they would let me quit when I got my black belt

But that was around 1-2 years ago

I think?

And they get mad at me for lying

Anyway

I like certain pieces, but because my parents hate any type of individuality I have

They prohibited me from playing them

And I lost the sheet music

So I can never play it

Ugh

On another note, I probably will either post very little or a lot

One of the extremes

HAHAHAHAHAH

I already miss you school friends >~<

And old school friends >~<

Anyway

Love you guys

See you sometime