This is kinda a vent

I'm sorry

So I'm sitting at my computer right now cursing everyone

I hate my parents

I hate everything

I hate myself

I hate science fair

I hate my teachers

I hate how I look

I hate how I talk

I hate my emotions

I hate everyone's inaction

I hate my suicidal thoughts

I hate it I hate it I hate it!!!!

Ugh

I feel like crap because this is how I feel during math and everyone has to suffer because the crybaby girl can't control her anxiety

I hate myself because I can't change my parents rules

And I hate my parents because they won't lay off

I do so much stuff for them and when I speak up they always think I'm the selfish one

I probably am

That selfish crybaby imperfect daughter

The attention seeker

All I want is fragging attention

Sure

I want to just hang myself

That would be so much easier

But my parents guilted me into not killing myself because it would ruin their lives

Ugh

All I want to do is have time to do things I like and want to do

But I end up doing a ton of stuff that I have no interest in

Everything I do makes me want to kill myself

I'm never good enough for anyone's standards

They take and they take and they take all my dreams

They told me I couldn't become and artist because it "didn't help people"

And I want to die because I feel like crap

They got mad at me because my tissue paper string habit is shit

And they always get mad when I try and tell them about my depression

And I feel like it's my fault

It's always my fault when I talk to them

(This is pretty old, I never got around to posting it until now. I'm alright)