Ugh I'm so madddddd

I was reading a fanfic where Sollux was your moirail and it was pretty decently written (the moirallegence I mean)

So I started thinking about my quadrants

"Officially" I have TL in my flushed, CW in my pale, and no one in my blackrom

I feel like I should be in an ashen relationship w/ CW and GL because I always seem to be moderating their arguments

While it's gotten better, being a moirallegence w/ CW is hard because it feels one sided

It's hard being TL's flushed as well, because my parents dislike him

So it ends up fluctuating between flushed and black and it hurts

I feel like it's more:

flushed: TL
Pale: n/a
Ashen: CW and GL
Black: TL

But since I haven't formed one of those fluctuating group square things it ends up being all weird

I really want a palemate tho bc those are cute

If anything, I feel that I fluctuate with GL and CW being moirails... but that's not true either I guess

I just want a palemate dammit

//cries herself to sleep