I ran a track meet today

I woke up at 6:45

Then I waited and stretched with Isabella, Reagan, and Vanessa

They're lit peeps

Then we waited as hopelessromantic393 ran an 800

I got texted by Escalona

Who is lit

He's a smol bean

Like 8 years old

But he's super confident

He's kinda like Elias

So innocent

That you want to beat be crap out of him

To watch them struggle

Because they're innocent

Wow is that what Junko did

D a m n

I'm a Junko now

Cri

Anyway yeah

I may or may not have ♠️ feelings for Elias and Escalona

They're the type of people I'd want to have a ♠️ with

But I like them

So

Eh

Maybe even a ♣️

Because ♣️ is fun

Then I stretched

Talked about anxiety with Isabelle

Ran a 100

Placed 3rd or 4th in my heat

Lit

I'm slow

Cri

Then I ate cherry ice on hopelessromantic393's advice

It was good

But we eat it differently

She scrapes the top off because it's melting

I just cut it into triangles like a pizza or a pie

And then scoop it out

👌

Then I slept in the car

Oh yeah I got a lit shirt and tank top

Time to talk about a more serious topic now I guess

Um

So yesterday at art I was drawing profile

(Characters looking to the side, facing right or left)

Like that ^

But I do it weirdly I guess?

That's a bad example since I wanted to try and "give her a nose"

So it looks like she's a furry

But that's not what she is

I do a snout thing?????

And apparently people don't like it like that

Even though I spent what

3-4 years trying to perfect my style

Because I also use it for animation

So that's why it's more rough, simple, and like that

I mean

I liked how I drew

I thought it looked nice

But then people kept "criticizing" (more like flat out calling it bad but whatever) how I drew, hands, feet, noses, bodies

So yeah

I would try to do more dynamic characters, but I don't know

I'm at a loss here

I kinda hate drawing now :/

It makes me sad that just because people dislike my style it would affect me so much

:/

So now I hate my style and I hate drawing

But my parents take advantage of my drawing

To make me make cards

Which sucks because I hate my family

I guess not hate

I just don't love them

So yeah

Torture cycle all around

That's why I'm more afraid to post actual content

Like pictures, art, poems, fanfiction

Because people always find it to be "cringy"

You wouldn't believe how many hate comments I've deleted lol

(On other books, not just this one)

*ahem*

Time to go full on rage mode

*trigger warning*

I fucking hate how people can just be like: wow you fucking suck

And you're sitting there trying not to cry

BECAUSE YOU SPENT 4 FUCKING YEARS

DRAWING

TO BECOME GOOD

BECAUSE YOU ENJOY IT

JUST FOR SOMEONE TO BASICALLY MAKE ALL OF YOUR EFFORTS VOID

AND YOU TELL THEM

"Hey guys I actually really like this piece, can you give some real criticism"

AND THEY IGNORE YOU

"Wow the proportions are so bad"

THERES NOTHING THERE

WHATS OUT OF PROPORTION

WHERE DO I NEED TO IMPROVE

CAN YOU TELL ME WHY IT LOOKS WEIRD

HOW CAN I I M P R O V E

"Why does it have a muzzle? Damn, that's so weird"

UH

MAYBE FUCKING TAKE A LOOK AT HOW I DRAW

MAYBE YOULL UNDERSTAND

THATS MY DRAWING STYLE

I CANT JUST AUTOMATICALLY CHANGE IT

TO FT YOUR FUCKING PREFERENCE

IVE SEEN ANIME DRAW LIKE THAT

AND NO ONE FUCKING QUESTIONS THEM

Ugh

I'm a hypocrite

But I had to get that out

Sorry

Have happy Chiaki

:)

I literally spent the rest of the day lounging on my bed

I ate cold pizza

Finished an entire season of My Hero Academia

Tsu is my favorite

Then I watched trashy HS videos

And I slept

Yay

Oh yeah sorry for the cringy edge fest up there

Hahahahahahahahahahahahah