Guess this is the first non-file in this thing, I've been thinking, "Nick, maybe you are just putting sad stuff in this thing" to which I answered "Well, of course, I have you stupid fuck, if it's my thoughts and they are sad" and honestly, I have to put my shit together, I've been wanting to write a psychological horror novel but I've been putting it off cuz of this situation -~-

Life's getting hard for me, I mean, it's supposed to be hard, but yeah I do admit I have "dark" thoughts like once a week or so. And every time I have them it's like... the next level, the one that goes beyond just thinking about it which is the planning, I've settled in a plan already, not that I'm gonna do it, but it's there. *Sigh* Me goes play genshin.

Byeye