will I ever forget how
doubts ran through my mind
like Olympic athletes
or how
the distance hurts
like a stab to the heart?
will I ever forget how
weeks passed as fast
as minutes
and my thoughts drifted?
or how
I knew you were so far
so I pushed myself further
away?
will I ever forget how
I spent my nights crying,
wondering if I could admit
if I could have that courage
or how
I wasn't sure
I meant the things
I said?

will you ever forgive me?