tw: character death
word count: 700(ish)

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Dan

I find peace in the rain.

The way the small droplets fall gently on the pavement, splashing, and creating small puddles of water on the roads. The rhythmic sound of the stormy weather is melodic; It's calming.

There's just something splendid about the way the water crashes down on us, and it is somehow associated with sadness when, in fact, it is quite magnificent. The grey clouds in the sky hover above us all.

They serve as a constant in this fast-paced world we live in; always there to remind us that we're still breathing.

Perhaps to most it is simply just the rain without a deeper meaning behind it.

But I've always preferred to see the other side of things, as did you.

So as I stood in front of the now soaked patch of dirt and wilted flowers that has become of your tombstone, I allowed the rain to wash all my sorrows away.

You never enjoyed the rainy weather; always preferring to stay inside on days like this, even though I always found the rain to be quite exquisite.

I closed my eyes as the downpour grew heavier, and the air grew colder, sending shivers down my spine. Most people would try to stay warm inside on days like today, but I was not like most people.

I allowed the chilling breeze to seep through my soaked jacket as I simply stared at the engraving of the tombstone.

I used to tell myself you're not really gone; that I'll come home to see you on your laptop, sitting on the couch and greeting me with a warm and kind smile; your blue eyes shining brightly. I look back at the messages we sent each other and try to deny the fact that those texts were sent months ago.

I continued to stand in silence; the only sounds being made were by the blowing wind and the heavy rainfall smacking against the dimly lit pathways.

I try to remember the fond moments we shared. The first Skype call when I was nervous I'd make things awkward somehow, but the moment I saw your face through the blurry camera all my fears subsided. When we first met at the train station, and you didn't even see me until I was running towards you and engulfing you in a monstrous hug. I kept mumbling "it's you" because I couldn't believe I was actually holding you in my arms.

I remember when I came over to your apartment, and you asked me to live in with you, even though you knew I would say yes. The time when I completely broke down, and you were right there to pick me back up. The time you tackled me in the middle of an airport because I was finally back home, and you "missed me more than you have ever missed anybody else before."

Our first kiss was something I couldn't forget even if the whole world was falling apart around me. We were on a walk in the park and it began to snow. We held hands for warmth, and I gently rested my head on your shoulder. "I love you," I had whispered without giving a second thought, and before another moment passed, our lips were locked, and time slowed down around us.

I remember the night I proposed. We were in Manchester, where we first met, and unexpectedly, it began to pour uncontrollably. You groaned at the rain drops falling from the sky, but I put my arms around your waist, and pulled you close until our lips collided. Just as I pulled away, I showed you the silver ring in my pocket, and asked you to marry me. You said yes, and kissed me with unlimited passion, not knowing that in four months time a car crash would prevent you from saying two simple words at the end of the aisle: "I do."

I sobbed for weeks after your passing; the mere sight of a grey cloud setting me off the edge. The rain felt heavy enough to pull the sky to the ground, crushing me beneath its weight.

But the rain has washed away any tears I have left to cry.

Now, I find peace in the rain.

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sorry this sucks? im not quite sure what's happening but I'll post it anyways because it's 2 am and im bored.

i haven't been finding much inspiration for my other book much lately so i made this book to hopefully get rid of writers block.

enjoy?