Today a very short one, sorry guys :,)
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I see you, I’m right in front of you. It’s not that hard to let those few words out.

But there’s a lump in my throat.

Sticky and heavy.

It would ruin us. It would ruin me.

I see apples on a tree in a farmer's garden. The juicy red apple looks so enticing and I want to pick it. But the fear remains that the farmer will come and chase me away. The apple is so near, but still so unreachable.

You’re so kind and funny. You take life lightly.

Maybe you would understand my feelings. But I’m too scared.

Scared of losing your smile, openheartedness, and presence.

So, I gather all my feelings and keep them inside me. That's the best for us.

A thin white sheet covers my heart. It’s soft, but tight. Who holds the corners? Me or you?

I don’t know anymore.

A worm made himself a home in the apple.