I want to love again
I want to be loved again
I want to be happy again
I want to have you back again
I want to be free from anxiety again
I want to have somebody to trust again
I want to have you around again
I want to laugh with you again
I want to smile for real again
I want to talk with you again
I  want  to  be  alive  again
I want to be normal again
I want to be myself again
I want to be okay again
I want to live again

I think of you
Then I cry again.
I read our texts
And promptly die again.
I talk about you
And soon I'm broken again.
I see you around
And immediately panic again.
You're completely fine
But I wish I could hate you, again.

I message you again
And soon I hate myself.
It's stupid to want you again
After almost two years.
When you reject me again,
Will I finally give up?
But it doesn't happen again
And you agree to meet.
Should I have hope again,
Or should I just cry?

I want to be happy.
I   want   to   be
I   want   to
Be whole
Again