"You study hard,"
That's what elders say.
"Parents will get proud.
Don't put them in dismay.
Just keep your faith,
Along the way.
Don't wake up late.
Enjoy school days.
But don't forget,
Your goals to aim."

But when I stopped,
And tried to work,
Difference is so big,
Between school and work.
Yes.
Both can have assignments.
Both can have commitments.
Both can have deadlines.
But the way they differ
From each other,
Is that the way our efforts
Are being compensated:
One goes through grades;
Other one is through salaries.
Also,
Not all the lessons
Being taught in school,
Are applied in actuality.
If we only have strategy,
Principles and humility,
Then we can get a job.
And if we are dedicated,
Flexible and persistent,
To our job,
With respect to co-workers,
Then, there's a chance we'll secure
Financial stability.
Regardless how intelligent,
or how beautiful we can be,
What matters is attitude,
And the perfect harmony
We bring to co-employees.
Or even in the whole company.

I mentioned earlier,
We just need wise strategy,
Because as a worker
I kinda met everybody:
Graduate or undergraduate;
Whether from public or private;
Employed or underemployed;
Whether new or old;
Probationary or contractual;
Working student or regular.
Most of them are just grateful.
Work for them is like a great tool.
For their families, they're helpful.
No matter how hard work is,
They remain cool.
Different good strategies,
But with the same goal.
And I salute them all.

But I came to the point
That as an undergraduate,
I can't avoid to be intimidated.
Knowing my former classmates,
Acquaintances, and old friends,
Having great jobs and job titles,
I felt like I am left behind.
I felt insecured.
I felt depressed.
I felt that I just wasted
Time and money
I spent in college.

I know I was at fault there.
I didn't strive harder,
I just became a follower,
Confidence was not stronger,
I didn't worked with hunger.
I wasn't a productive worker.
I was not a good caliber.

So I go back to school.
And set a new rule:
Be jolly and cool;
Get out of comfort zone;
Let negativity live alone;
Let problems go along;
And just sing a song.
That's how I can be strong.

But now as I study,
I realized something.
My memory is slowly fading.
It maybe because of aging,
Or maybe my interest is lacking.
I have to do something.
I don't want to repent again.
Thanks to my faithful friends.
Always there; Encouraging.

I have to bear in mind:
"I came back to school,
To become successful.
Maybe not today,
But in the near future.
To help my family in return.
To address to them my concern.
As well as to show my gratitude.
And so I have to be patient,
Keep my faith and strengths,
Improve my weaknesses,
Overcome my sensitivities,
And welcome maturities.
Don't know where it will take me.
But now I will do everything
To become the better me."

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I dedicate this one to those who have struggles and have self-doubts like me.

By the way photo is not mine.

(I really made this one so that whenever I want to give up, I will read this to enlighten and encourage myself.)