A big insecurity I have that has and still is eating me alive is the label "gifted".

It's been bothering me ever since fourth grade, my first year in the gifted program. It was then I started to realize that I was in fact dumber than all of the kids in the program.  Sometimes I couldn't do the simplest of puzzles and riddles. Sometimes I couldn't get myself to memorize the material. A few times  I have found the lessons a little bit......boring. 

I've been feeling so out of place. I'm not the most social and hate working in groups because I can't do things my way. I'm not the type of person who could easily charm everyone and take charge (bonus if they're conventionally good-looking).  As a result people don't really like me or think I'm either stupid, boring, or both.

 So why is an average person like me doing in that program?

Because my smart mother put me in a program so I'll be ahead at school.

And for some reason, I feel so guilty.