It's almost 2 am and I'm uncontrollably crying. I don't even know why. Maybe it's depression flaring up. I did nothing all day today, and now I'm up in the middle of the night crying my eyes out. I considered hurting myself, but I've managed not to. I have to write. I have to channel this into something I understand. I don't know what I'm feeling or why I'm feeling like this. I don't feel sad or tired or overwhelmed or frustrated. I just feel hollow. I can't think of a single happy moment even though I know I've experienced them. All I can see is the moments I've felt hurt or sad or scared. Why is this happening? Why won't it stop? Please... Make it stop.