Recovery is a lifelong effort. Whether mental or physical, you're never going to be exactly the same as you were before. I feel like people don't realize this. People can look at someone who is depressed and say "just be happy" but it doesn't work like that. You don't tell someone who is paralyzed to "just walk again".

Recovery is hard. It has it's ups and downs. In mental recovery you'll have your relapses. In physical recovery you'll have your setbacks. You're ALLOWED to relapse or have a setback. It happens. It's not the end of the world. What matters is that you try again, no matter how much you want to give up. Even if you won't be the same way you were before, don't you want to be the best you that you can be? For that you have to keep fighting. Stay strong.