I can barely sleep. I can barely eat. All I can do is keep myself busy and try not to think. But there's always a time where I can't stay busy any more. It's normally around now, early in the morning before the sun is up. I've done everything I can think of doing, but I can't stay focused. I just lay awake, unable to do anything but think and cry. Why am I like this? Why can't I just function like a normal person? Or better yet, why can't I just not feel? I don't want to feel like this anymore. I just want everything to stop.