The last few days have been... rough.

A close friend that I love and respect immensely passed away, my abusive brother came to live with us indefinitely, and I went through an extremely traumatic realization that, for personal reasons, I will not go into.

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up again at this point. Honestly, if it weren't for a few people and a promise, I probably would've done that by now.

I'm just really tired. I can't do anything social for more than a few minutes at a time. The extent of my social life is scrolling through Instagram for 2 minutes and taking a nap with my boyfriend, so I'm sorry I haven't really responded to anything or written at all. I'm not in a productive mood. I don't know when I will be. Sorry.