My feelings and people around me tell me opposite things.

My feelings tell me I'm a waste of space, that everyone hates me and only talks to me because otherwise I'm a pestering bitch, and no one needs me.

Then people around me tell me they love me and look up to me and don't know what they'd do without me.

I think I'm going to go with my feelings on this one. Why would someone love and look up to someone who sometimes doesn't get out of bed, or can't keep their emotions in check, and is constantly looking to others for help. Someone who can't stand to look at themselves in the mirror and wants to quit life most days?

Just tell me you don't. Then I can stop this inner turmoil.