Just saw your face for the first time in over a month and I felt like it was that day all over again. The knife that had been stabbed into my chest just twisted a little more. I wish you would just block me so I didn't have to feel that anymore, but I deserve it and you're far too nice of a person to do that. I still can't bring myself to let go completely. I'm afraid I'll loose my mind if I do. Maybe one day I'll be able to. It's just small steps for now.

I hope you're happier now. I really do. I'm not, but that's okay. I'll probably think about it every day for a long time, but I'll manage. I always have. It was easier with you though.