God damn it I hate it. I hate that I can't look at anything the same way. I can't think about anything without it reminding me of you somehow. And I hate it. Because thinking about you brings me so much pain. And I just want to forget. I want to forget everything. All those beautiful moments that made me smile so much now only hurt me. I want to forget it all. Because as much as I hate to admit it, I love you and it hurts so damn much. If I could forget all of this ever happened, I wouldn't care so much. I wouldn't be in so much pain.