Tonight I sit looking up at the stars, knowing that there is so much out there unknown. Such a beautiful view. Who is out here looking up at me? I have no clue is doing the same

As children wishing on that star, hoping it hears us and makes at dreams come true. Feeling heart ache looking for the answers in the stars. Wanting to go back in time being that kid that really did not know pain like we do now .

So I sit here and can cry and share my heart ache, heart ache or many w my pain. What will that do? Just give you something more to look down on me and make you feel more powerful. That your life is so much better.

That's not what this is about. This is me looking up in a sky with so much wonder and places no one knows have any idea what is out there. I give my dreams my hope and my desire to the stars to hear once more than the child I was once was. I smile, knowing this is silly, but it's it, really? What do we have to lose to let out our wishes of a happier life to life?

I will work on me not to hold the negative things that were fed right me with word that hurt and make you believe. I let go of the ones that used me and played me, thinking I was weak for being so caring. I let go of the pain of believing lies that were told to me to keep me around as a toy you play with when no one is around.

Today I let the positive world and people to stay around me. The ones that life me up and know I am human and not perfect. I smile that I still have dreams and believe that one day I will have it all. There is only me that can keep me going to be a better me and where I want to be. I would gladly take you with me on this ride if you want. I give you my word I will have ups and downs, but my end game is to be happy with who I am.

I can't make you believe or change you nor will I try, for you are you and I am me. I just know when to let go and who to hold on to. I know when to walk away and when to sit with you. But most of all, your down falls are not from me or my words. Others hurt you and treat you unkind. You took that out on me and I let you prove I see a better you. Not my job to make you see what you are not ready to see. I don't judge you, nor will I start now. I still believe in the good of people and that karma is karma. I will not wish any bad will to anyone for I don't want it to come to come my way.

So leave me be it. I am not the person you need in your life. Walk away and find your light. I know where mine is, and it's inside of me. I give it to those in need, for my good deed gives me all the love I need to know. One day, I will be blessed with all I need .