Today. Is my Birthday.

Yes.

But timezones...

Today is May 17 for me meaning it's ma birthday so...

:D Happy Birthday to Me!

But seriously.... I can't take the amount of people caring for me.

I started using Wattpad last year in July. Now....

I gained so much from you guys. You taught me that it's okay being me.

You helped me remember that I'm not alone in this world.

Thank you for caring me.

I'm a proud Amino user too! Yes, I used the app just a week ago.

Everything that has going on with me was not okay.

I felt that no one believed in me.

That everyone would turn their backs on me and I'll be crying without anyone else.

It's just me.

But You Guys! The Amino People on the Aphmau Amino showed that I do have someone to be with.

People that I could relate to-

People that recognize my work.

I'm not really on Fame.

I'm just happy to know that I help.

Sharing my story to everyone is like being an educator.

Someone who wants to dedicate her whole entire life to people she doesn't know.

My social life is very different from my personal life.

People wouldn't trust or believe in me whatsoever.

They hated me.

I did nothing to them but they kept hitting me with mean words and emotional pain.

I have to protect myself from them but I felt like giving up.

I was definetly alone. Forever.

You would have thought I have such an amazing family but you just don't know.

My dad has been in mutiple accidents.

My sister keeps on fighting me. We kept on fighting for no reason.

My mom always spanks me for always being on my phone.

Calling me an addicted person.

But they all didn't know.

That phone. This phone. Was my life. The life that I wished I had.

Everyone wants to target my life when they want to rage.

They were always jealous of my life.
But they never asked my true condition.

Because behind my valedictorian times and supportive family, I also have deep secrets like they do.

My classmates would always disagree with anything I do- anything that I try to resolve.

I want to help. But they still didn't believe me.

I was always the Teacher's pet. But have anyone found out why I was the Teacher's pet?

I appreciated everyone in my school. The teachers are really kind to me.

I never turn their backs on anyone but what torture are they doing to me?

The teachers were always there to try to protect me from everyone who keeps on telling me that I'm stupid-not deserving-I should die.

There wasn't any favoritism.

Because I know to myself.

That I have done nothing wrong to them.

I'm taking all the pain all by myself.

No one knows what I like.

No one knows what I want.

They never asked me what I really wanted.

But why? Why was my life so cruel?

I could hear laughing behind me while in front of me were millions of people telling me that I'm cool! Amazing! Inspirational!

But behind that was my sad life.

I collect all my grief and pain through literature. I loved writing ever since I was young.

Music was also my wall to lean on.

It calms me down whenever I feel Sad. Angry. Depressed.

But nothing could be like you guys.

You guys are amazing whoever you are.

I would like to dedicate this to all my closest Wattpad Followers;

MariaPupluv, TXLlove , SimplyUnique9 , RoseQueen970 , azia0117 , the entire group of TheAphmauBookClub and to everyone else who believed in me since the start.

To my Amino followers, to everyone who cared for me in my post.

Being featured on the front page of Aphmau Amino was nothing to me.

Having 200+ likes was just a number.

But nothing could match those things than everyone caring for me in the comments.

Seriously! It was just a Twitter Account but you guys still got concern about how I was feeling. About how sad and depress I was at the time.

Many bad things have been happening to me in my life.

And I couldn't say enough for everyone who helped me during this journey.

I would also like to thank this one person.

The person who introduced me to this world I am in now.

Thank you, Aphmau.

And thank you, Jessica Bravura.

For showing me the light to my new purpose.

For letting me know that I have something to accomplish in life.

Thank you so much.

I can't let anything bad happen to you.

That depression. We will fight it.

We will fight this great battle of our lives together.

Thank you everyone.

It was really "just like a dream..."

A dream that I never believed would happen.

Thank you everyone. :)

Thank you too , Aaron- Lycan.

Yes. You!

I relate to you so much.

I happy to know that you are happy in your position too.

I was inspired because of you.

Of what you've been through.

Just like me.

(Ein was my closest similarity but not anymore)

I-I love you.... Aaron Lycan.

🐰💜❤🐺

"Didn't she just confess her love to a fictional character?!??! The Flip?!?!"

>~< Hah. Blame Dante. He wrote that knowing me.

Dante: (°∀°)b

Dante: I also know that you love red bandanas and red jackets! Also you wished to be Irene to protect Aar-

Nikki: SHADDUP! XD

(Nikki ends up kicking Dante's face)

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《🎵I was thinking 'bout you,💎
    📒thinking 'bout me,📖
    🐰Thinking 'bout us,🐇
    🐾what we gon' be.🐺
    😭Open my eyes (yeah).😂
    💭It was only just a dream.🎆
    ✈So I travelled back
         down that road.🚦
    🌀Will you come back?⌛
    🏩No one knows.🔮
    🎒I realize (yeah)👒
    💬it was only just a dream.🎵》

~Nelly "Just a Dream"

This was inspired by Christina Grimmie and Sam Tsui's cover of "Just a Dream" .

Hebrews 10:19-25

I shall be called to persevere. :)
I will continue on my journey whatever happens.
I will not stop because I have found my purpose.
And I will persevere to my purpose in life.

Thank you for reading... :) <3

EDIT: Is the message not clarified?
I think I might have broke my message..... :P