Honestly, fuck having kids and getting married. Fuck studying for jobs that at first sound interesting but then gradually make your life miserable. Fuck being a lawyer, bank accountant, doctor.

You know what? I don't want to live a mainstream life. No, I'm not "hipster", because, wake the fuck up, it's not 2013 anymore. Have you ever noticed the cycle that goes on in everyone's life? Go to school. Attend college, study some boring topic. Get married. Have kids. Get divorced. Spend the rest of your miserable life paying off your debts and raising you children.

I don't want that. I really, really don't. I don't want kids. Marriage scares me. I don't want to eventually hate my job.

You know what I want? I want to study something really interesting and hands on, like forensic science. And I also want to study architecture. And I want to be a book author. But mostly forensic science. That's what I want. ((Did y'all know that crime scene investigator is actually a job?? It's seems very interesting, unlike sitting in front of a computer all day.)))

I also want to be the aunt that spoils your kids and show them things you don't want them to know about yet. I want to be the person that embarrasses you in your wedding. I want to be that person in the family that tells shit like it is and tells your kids that it's all okay, yes, you can be famous, yes, you can travel the world for a living, no, you don't have to do this, no, you don't have to be that, and actually encourages and helps them to do so, not only tells them dismissively like many parents do.

Sorry mamá, don't expect a husband, any grandkids, or a diploma from law school from me.

I literally only wrote this bc I couldn't sleep last night (I never can, actually. The average human takes about 7 minutes to fall asleep. I take like 45 minutes- 1 hour, with my eyes closed the whole time) and I took time to actually think about my future and shit so I wrote this bc I was still thinking about it when I woke up lmao