Trigger warning- don't read if you're suicidal. It's not really that bad but just in case because I don't want anyone to kill themselves I'm just expressing my thoughts on suicide.

I'm not suicidal
I'm happy with my life
But I'm just sometimes curious as to what it feels like and how other people will react if I kill myself

Will they cry? Be happy? Celebrate? Get depression? Kill themselves?

How will it feel? Will I see that light that everyone talks about? Will it be painful? Will it feel like lifting a weight off your shoulders?

Of course, I wont commit suicide to know the answers to these questions. I'm just really curious and I want to know, that's all.