Stalling

I stare at the 26 projects
In front of me that affects
My life.
Through these dark cold hours
I place them back, away
Like a coward!
Why am I stalling?
For what am I waiting?

You, there at the lover's table
In your favorite restaurant.
I know what you want
You want to pull out that box,
But you decide against it.
Why?
Are you worried she doesn't feel the same?
Are you scared?
Why are you stalling?

The girl at the back
Of the class with an exam
I see you biting your nail,
Highlighting like mad,
Trying everything but fail.
Why is the question in front of you unanswered?
Why do you shake your head
And erase so much?
Are you scared of flunking, is that it?
Are you worried for your future?
Why are you stalling?

You, training aimlessly on the track,
In the gym.
You know that's not your life.
You signed up as it was your passion
But now it's a competition.
You want to be ready, you say
Ready for what?
Why are you training so hard?
Why did you let this thing
Consume you from the inside out?
Are you scared you'll lose?
Are you worried you're not good enough?
Why are you stalling when an event comes up?

You people with the guns to your heads,
The knives to your wrists, the handful pills in your hand.
You think you're better dead
No one will miss you,
But what about your family?
They will miss you more
More than you'll ever know
"I'm going to do it!" You say.
Why are you hesitating then?
Are you worried about what I said?
Are you scared for what's waiting,
Waiting on the other side?
Why are you stalling?

I think I know why
These projects are unfinished:

I'm scared to make a mistake
Even though I'm human.
I'm worried about not pleasing my superior
Even though I'm human.
I want to do them,
But something holds me back.
I let this consume my life
I keep thinking of it when I'm with family
Because I'm human...

Now I know these are the reasons
Why I feel this way,
The reasons why I'm stalling.