autumn leaf

i hate it when that feeling creeps up on me
the kind that sends daggers through your heart
or a gun that kills troops in the army

i hate it when the feeling disturbs my peace
and my mind gets beclouded by you
just to take away my happiness

i hate it when the feeling  crushes my heart
like an autumn leaf under my shoe
and my eyes well up

i hate to feel this emotion
ever since you left the open air
for a gap in the ground

i hate crying over you
i hate missing you

all I do is cry
and long

long
for time
with you

© Franklin J. Stadler