Spark's P.O.V.

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Thorin seemed like he was in a better mood. He wouldn't let me out of his sight though.

He did seem uneasy though.

"You ok?" I asked softly.

"There is something you should know, but only when you figure out your feelings for me will I be able to tell you. I don't want to pressure you into a decision." he said, a hurt look in his eyes, like someone betrayed him.

"Ok, I'll hurry then." I smiled, hugging him. I'm just glad I got my best friend back. He acted a bit different,  but not a lot. He would still pick on me.

When it started to get dark, we set up camp by a cliff. I was sitting on the edge, waiting for Thorin. I had come up with my answer, and he was on his way over.

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Thorin's P.O.V.

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I hope she has an answer for me, I really do. It's been bothering me all day, the feeling that she was being watched. Whoever it was was not watching me. They were watching her, which bothered me more than if it was me.

I walked over to talk to her where she was sitting on the edge of the cliff.

"Made up your mind yet?" I asked, putting an arm around her as I sat down.

"Yes," she smiled, slipping an arm around my waist like she used to, as well as laying her head on my shoulder. I haven't seen that smile in a long time. I missed it.

"And?"

"I love you."

"Wait, what?"

"Isn't that the answer you wanted?"

"Of course,  I just wasn't expecting it."

"Ok, just checking." She seemed to relax a bit.

"Spark?"

"Yes Thorin?" she whispered.

"Would you like your necklace back?"

"Please, and I'm sorry I lost it. It was taken from me."

"It's fine Spark. I don't mind." I whispered in her ear.

She turned to face me as I pulled the necklace from my pocket and slipped it around her neck. She kind of shivered at my touch. After she had the necklace on, I kissed her. Everyone around the campfire fell silent, then started cheering. Spark went to pull away because of it, but I wouldn't let her.

When we went back to the others, Kili had a smirk on his face, so I glared at him. Spark elbowed me for some reason.

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Spark's P.O.V.

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Thorin is way to harsh on Kili. He's an absolute sweetheart,  and Thorin can't see it because he chose Fili as his favorite. I get along with Kili better than Fili. Kili would be willing to help anyone at any time.

I sat by Thorin by the fire, and about 10 minutes later, I went to bed. My roll was away from the others, me being a girl and all. About an hour later, Thorin came over with his roll, and laid it a few feet from mine.

I was already asleep actually. All I know is that when I woke up, I was somewhere other than when I fell asleep.

I woke up with Thorin's arm around my waist. I also had my head on his chest, which was, in fact, quite comfortable. I just laid there with my eyes closed, waiting for him to wake up. The two of us were always the first up.

I heard someone moving around the fire, and gently, as so not to wake up Thorin, went to check it out.

It was Kili. For some reason, he was gathering his stuff already.

"Kili, what are you doing?" I asked softly.

"Leaving."

"But why?"

"Because I'm more of a nuisance than anything,  and I just can't get any thing right. And I have the feeling that Uncle Thorin hates me."

"Let's go ovr to the cliff to talk."

"Ok."

When we got over to the cliff where Thorin and I sat last night, I asked,  "Now how are you a nuisance?"

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Thorin's P.O.V.

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Why would Kili feel like a nuisance, and why would he think he can't get anything right? Most of all, why does he think I hate him?

"I just feel like I'm always in the way, that people have to go out of their way to talk to me. It's like I don't matter much." Kili said, in a soft, choked voice.

"That's not true. You're not in the way Kili, I promise. Now what gives you the idea you can't do anything right?" Spark replied questioningly.

"Every time I try to do something, anything,  and Uncle Thorin is around, or really anyone but you, I get criticized. I just can't do anything right, cuz I could do something, and Fili could do the exact same job with the exact same requirements, both met, and both done the same way. However, Uncle Thorin always chooses Fili's work, even if mine is better. He still finds a way to criticize me." Do I really criticize him that much?

" Kili, you can get stuff right. Don't worry. Now, you really think he hates you?"

"I don't know what else could cause all this! He always is so proud of Fili when we get out of battle,  and if someone asks how I did he rolls his eyes like no one should care. Last night, everyone had a smirk on their face, and he glared at ME!! Fili is the one who started it, and pointed you guys out! Fili is perfect in his mind, and then there's me. I get in the way. I cause everything to go wrong. Nobody likes me, they all hate me. Uncle Thorin didn't even want to bring me! My mother spent a month convincing him to bring me. Fili, on the other hand, he got an immediate yes. He's the perfect one, and I'm the screwed up, in the way, useless, hated one." Kili actually had tears forming. He never cried in front of me, probably so I wouldn't say he's weak.

What I didn't know was Fili was listening in. All of a sudden, Fili burst out of his hiding place to comfort his brother.

"Kili, I didn't know. Please don't leave. I thought Uncle Thorin let you come, if I would've know that's why you were upset two months before we left, I would've refused to come! You aren't useless, screwed up, or any othe the other things you just said."

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Spark's P.O.V.

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Thorin is listening in and I know it.

I looked over to the fire to where Kili had been packing his stuff. It looked more like he was combining his with Fili's. Was he planning on talking Fili into coming? What's that beside the... A DAGGER!? H-he wasn't planing on walking away. He wanted to kill himself. Th-that's what he meant by leave. My face must've went pale, because both boys asked if I was ok.

"I'm fine, but Fili,  I need to talk with Kili privately, so if you could go start waking the others, it would be a huge help."

"Ok Spark." Fili said, walking away.

"Kili?"

"Yes?" he replied, his eyes not meeting mine.

"You were planning on killikng yourself,  weren't you?"

"I just didn't know what to do! All the criticism,  all the bullying, all of everything was getting to me!! If I ran, all people's trust in me would be gone. I would get no respect, for I would be deserting my family. I had no other option, and n-now I regret it!" He was now in tears. He had been pushed to his breaking point, and almost snapped.

"Kili, if it matters to you, you mean too much to me for you to kill yourself. Please don't ever consider it again." I whispered, hugging him. I was close to crying now.

Thorin stepped out of where he was hiding, and said he would handle it.

I went back to the fire, and Fili asked me what was wrong. I took him for a walk and explained the whole thing.

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Thorin's P.O.V.

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He was going to kill himself because of me. I am the worst uncle in the whole of Middle Earth.

"Kili, I'm sorry. I didn't know I was criticizing you that much, or making it seem like I hate you. You're not a nuisance. It may seem like Fili and I are perfect, but we aren't. You also said everyone around here hates you. What gave you that idea?"

"No one around here, except for Spark, is nice to me." He was finally beginning to calm down, and I had an arm around him. He was starting to remind me of when he was little, and Fili went places without him, because little Kili was too small. He would cry, and only calm down once I put an arm around him, and started to pick on him. Then Dis would always call the two of us crazy, so Kili always bugged her until she apologized.

"Kili, I just don't realize what I say half the time any more. I'm really sorry."

After that, we went to join the others, and they all, exceot Spark and Fili, shot me  a questioning look. I just shook my head, and they lost intrest. Kili sat down, and Fili moved to sit beside him, with an arm around his younger brother. I guess Spark told him about the suicide attempt.

Spark and I sat a good distance from the others to talk.

"Whatbis it that you wanted to tell me once I knew how I feel about you?" she asked.

"Well, my father was planning an arranged marrige for you before Arebor was attacked."

"He was WHAT!?"

"He told me 3 weeks before the attack came."

" To who?"

"Well, here's the thing. He was also planning one for me. He said we were getting to be really close of friends."

"So he was going to separate us!?"

"I never said that, and to answer your earlier question, me."

"Wait so he was planning to have us marry each other, with no consent from me?"

"When he told me, I said that you would take it badly, and his response was you didn't need to know till the day of, and I refused to go with it."

Later that day, we headed into the mountains.

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Spark's P.O.V.

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Thorin and I walked back to the group after our little conversation. Thorin then said, "I want everyone's attention. This morning, while all of you were sleeping, we almost lost a member of our company. Does anyone know who?"

"Was it Fili?" Gloin asks.

"Why would you say that?" Thorin challenged.

"Well his stuff is sitting over there, almost fully packed."

"Nice reasoning, but no. Any other guesses?"

"We almost lost young Kili. It seems as though he combined his things with his brother's,  and the dagger laying there beside the pack tells me he wasn't going to walk away. He planned to leave us for good." Balin said slowly. You could hear everyone's quick intake of breath.

"But why?" Dwalin asked. Kili did not look like he could tell them, so I did.

"No one has been treating him very well. You need to stop criticizing him so much and think before you speak. Think about how it'll affect him."

Then we went on our way.