This Sickness

there is a sickness inside of me

deep down where no one else can see

it torments my thoughts

attacking all my faults

i try to hold myself together

but its tearing me apart

mutilating this already shattered heart

how can i be set free

struggling desperately to just breathe

poisoned from the inside out

filling my mind with thoughts of doubt

my bodies been infected, my blood runs slow and cold

for every hardship i've been tested

this agaonizing pain i've felt for days and now its getting old

fearing that i'll lose my mind

all my reason left behind

please dont look at me with pity in your eyes

dont pretend to understand my desperate cries

my eyes are red my bones are broken

my life will never be the same all happiness has been stolen

there has to be some hope

or atleast a way to help me cope

but no, this sickness will never mend

all i can hope for is a quick end