"Hey!" I look to the little boy who called me. They told me he was called Evan. He is my little brother. He was with a little boy with glasses. That other boy is called, Nathan.

"Why don't you talk?" Me? Don't I? I speak.. I just don't feel like it now. Leila said.. I was in state of shock. Leila..

Is she really my mom? All my life I thought I was all alone. Why did she abandon me? But.. She did save me. She got hurt saving me.

"Evan please don't bother your big brother." That man. Everyone calls him, Bryan. But Evan.. Evan calls him..

"Dad!" Dad.. But Evan.. His mom is not Leila.

How old is Evan? Right.. He told me before he is 10. Though we have the same height. I was as small as him. I look thinner than him. Evan must have ate lots and lots.

"Jake.." Nathan gave me something.
"Nate! Don't go too far from me!" Evan is very protective towards Nathan. Everytime they separate he will get mad.

Nathan.. He gave me a stone. No.. What is this. I lift it up and held the small stone in between my fingers. It's a marble. A gray marble.

"Evan please go play with Nate in the backyard." Bryan said.

"C'mon Nate!" He grab Nate's hand and eyed me. "Brother!" I flinch at his loud voice. Is he mad?

"There you finally looked at me properly. Don't be so sad, Jake. We are brothers." He grin at me and run off with Nathan.

"Jacob.." Bryan knelt in front of me and held my hand. I took it away and look down on my lap.

"Jacob.. Please don't push me away. I'm sorry. I'm sorry you have to live all your life there. I'm sorry that I came so late. I'm sorry son.." Why is he crying?

"Leila.." I said and he snap his eyes at me. Why is so surprised to hear my voice?

"You finally speak to me." He looked so relieve.

"Where's.. Leila?" I grab his hand and cried with him.

"Jacob.. My son!" He pulled me in his arms and sobbed. He cried so loud but it didn't bothered me.

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"Leila?" I grip onto Bryan's hand as he led me to Leila's room.

"J-Jacob..?" Leila is on a bed.. She looks weak.. she was crying.

"My baby.. Come here.." She cried and open her arms. I let go of Bryan's hand and walk towards Leila. I want to hug her. I should right? Was it okay?

It's okay right? She is.. my mom..

So I climb up her bed and hugged her. She felt so warm that I fell asleep so fast in her arms. I couldn't even remember how long was I up. For days and for long nights.. Since we escape.. I could not sleep until now.

"You know he never spoke.. He never slept. Just now. Only now that he wanted to see you." I can still hear them..

"Thank you.. Thank you so much Bryan. You did all you could. You were able to bring my son back. Our son.."

"We did, Leila. We did."

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****present****

"Jacob!! Brother!!!" I woke up and almost punch this jerk. He dares to wake me up!

"Fuck it, Evan! Get out! Didn't you just left?!" Fuck.. And I just dreamt of something horrible..

Shit.. My head hurts..

"You were having a nightmare." He sternly said, grabbing my arm and helping sat up.

"I'm fine.." I sighed.

"Jacob, here." I snap my head towards her.

"Leila..? What are you doing here?" It's Leila..

"Drink this first." He hand me a cold glass of water and made me drink it. I drank half and held the cold glass against my forehead.

"I'm fine." I said and she smiled. Ugh..

"Why are you here? Weren't you in a European cruise with Bryan?" Just when I persuaded her. She'll go home just after 2 weeks? It was supposed to be a month and a half! Ugh..

"I just.. Well.. We have to go back. Bryan was called in an urgent mission." Right.. Bryan is the head chief of the police force. He is really good at his job. Really really good.

"Jake!" I groaned when Nathan came running and suddenly jumped onto me.

"Nate don't do that! You're still recovering!" Evan reprimanded. Ugh.. Too noisy.

"Get out of my room please. I'm trying to rest. I have a massive hangover so just leave! Geez!" I lied down and covered my self with the blanket.. Wait.. I grab the blanket and eyed Leila.

"Fine. I'm alright." I assured them and they all nodded. This blanket. It was the one that Leila always gives me when I had nightmares or episodes. Its been years since I finish my therapy but those memories are still with me. It never leaves.

"Jake? Can I look at you just to make sure?" Nathan is wearing his thick glasses but he still can't see much if he don't get close. I grab his hands and led them to my face. He grin and lean at me. Too close but this is the only distance he can see me clearly.

"You look pale." He stroke my hair and smiled.

"But I know you will be okay, right Evan?" Evan pulled him away and nod at me.

"Yeah. Bro, I'll leave you with Leila. I'll take Nate home. He just wanted to see you so I took him here."

"Yeah. Go."

"Bye, Jake. Please take care of your self." He hugged me and left with Evan. Nate is so free spirited even with his condition.

"Do want to eat?" I sighed and shook my head.

"Leila.. Remember when I fell down from a cliff when I was running after Evan when we went camping?"

"O-of course. Why ask that? Did you dreamt of that?" She looked like she'll cry any moment. I sat up and shook my head. She sat comfortably next to me on my bed and we both lean at the headboard.

"No.. That dream.. Was a little different. I just remembered this one, yesterday at the bar."

"When you got drunk." I pouted and eyed her appologetically.

"Y-yeah.. Anyway.. It was an episode.." She held my hand and just eyed me.

"Evan had to fetch me because I couldn't move." I sighed. "Back then I fell in a hole right? Evan almost fell in with me but I manage to save him.. But in the end Evan always ends up saving me as well. He pull his self together. He manage to call you and Bryan. He was willing to go down the hole to save me but I told him not too. When you and the rescuers came.. I was half consious but I remember.. Evan held my hand. It felt nice.. It felt warm. Like yours. I was always wondering, Leila.. When I feel warmth.. It's different. It's like.. a different kind of warmth."

"Jacob.. Hun.. That's because that warmth you feel is no ordinary warmth. It's love." Love? I look at her and she made me lean on her shoulder. I feel sleepy.. Everytime she's with me like this. I feel so at peace.

Can I ever find someone who can make me feel like this? Warm.. and at peace.. I feel so safe.

"Jacob?"

"Mom.. Stay.." She inhaled sharply, surprised with what I called her. I rarely call her that.. Very rare. because I can't.. I'm afraid to call her that. I feel like it might not be true. I can't bear to accept it. I'm afraid someone might take it away.

"Of course.." She stroke my hair while holding my hand as she hum out a silent lullaby.

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****the incident****

"Take my hand, Jake! Don't give up. Don't ever give up! Brother please!!"

Evan reach out his hand and I was able to grab it. Someone was carrying me and we were being lifted by a thick rope. It was Bryan.. My Father was holding onto me and I was crying because I hurt all over. Evan pulled me up and Bryan held me as well. They want to take me to a stretcher but I didn't let go of Bryan. I just cried and cried. I was so scared. I was scared that Evan got hurt. I was scared when I was all alone down there. I was so afraid I might die there. I am afraid to not see my family again when they were just given back to me..

"Dad.. Dad.. Dad.." I cried and Bryan held me tight but careful of my injuries.

"Son.. You're alright.. Shh.. Shh.." I know he is trembling. He is in tears as well..

"Jacob!!! Jacob.. Oh my God! Oh my God.." Leila sobbed and I reach out to her.

"Mom.." And called out to her. They both hugged me as Bryan held a cloth over the back of my head. It was bleeding.

"Leila. We need to take him to the hospital. He's bleeding badly."

"Yes. Hurry." They both ignored their tears and both carried me and Evan.

That's all I remembered from our first trip together.

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Authors POV.

Leila is Bryan's girlfriend in highschool. He got her pregnant at the age of 16 and her parents took her away from Bryan. Leila's family turn out to be members of a human trafficking syndicate. They both got killed when the police found their hide out. Leila's older brother took Jacob when he was just a baby and left. He was about to sell the baby but decided to let him grow up and sell him like any other boy he sells.

Their organization found another hideout but Leila went back to Bryan for help. Bryan already have a new family but his wife died few years later due to poor health. Bryan raised Evan alone for almost two years and then Leila returned. Leila asked Bryan for help. Bryan just lost his wife, he couldn't bare to loose a son as well so they devised a plan to save their son but they couldn't find the syndicates hide out. Years later when they finally found them Leila drop all the plans Bryan said and dive in head first. She purposely got herself caught, to save her son. Bryan did all he could to save all the victims but the syndicate wanted to kill all of them. Leila shielded her body at Jacob and when Bryan finally came. Almost all the victims were dead.