"I didn't lose you. You lost me. You'll search for me in everyone you're with and I won't be found" -R.H.Sin.

I've never really been good at knowing the right person but, when I talked to you, got to know you, smiled and blushed for the first time, I felt a new feeling that no one has ever made me feel.
Now, speaking of the quote, he moved on but I didn't lose him. I see him smiling when he looks at me being happy, I see him blush when he talks to me, I feel the difference in his hugs from the time he liked me and time he didn't. I guess at first I felt like everything was going to be fine but you will sooner realize that being in love and then being heart broken literally feels like your heart is shredding to pieces....

Just wait..

It'll happen.

And when it does.

You'll know my pain.

I've got very strong over the months that he has been gone. I get stronger everyday. He gets worse everyday. I can see it in his eyes that are ridiculously gorgeous... Anyways, I'm getting smarter and more positive and the more good things that happen to me, the more I can see him slowly falling apart.

Now, I am still upset. That doesn't stop me from living my life every day at the very fullest. I have always said, "life's too short to complain", there are definitely exceptions to this because guys can make a girl mad or even make her so triggered she just *clenched my fists*. You get the idea.

Being a teenage girl that's so lost out of her mind can easily be lost in the world, especially in this generation. My teenage years were always hard. Through the tears, the pain, the screams, the blades. Teenagers are OVER-RATED! I was very emotional as a teenager but first, let me tell you how my entire life was set up to this.