Sometimes life isn't as expected you know you think when you're younger that you will grow up and be rich living in this huge house and being an astronaut but is that really true? Ya I mean maybe some lucky few get the jobs of their dreams but others stuck at mcdonalds. When you're younger you never really imagin sitting in bed crying over nothing or feel down for no reason. Kids happen to think that you will always be Happy but that isn't the case. Truly when I was a kid I wanted to be nothing more of an actor but now that I'm almost 15 I know that that's not the case I've had many dreams. I've wanted to be so many things such as figure skater not Likly I'm really clumsy or an artist/ cartoonist (someone who makes animations also called and animator) but really I've stuck with author really I love writing and its such a habit but I know my grammar absolutly sucks and ill work on it but kids just don't get why someone could be sad for no reason because it just doesn't make sense but for someone who suffers depression and anxiety it suddenly makes sense and now every kid is "depressed" because its cool to be depressed but I've been diagnosed another misconception about it is that you arnt happy....I mean basicly that's what depression means but if you laugh here and there and crack a smile once a day doesn't mean you arnt hurting but kids. What do they know actually pretty much nothing. I also use age regression as a coping mechanism because my parents don't really except me for who I am (ftm) and that's put a lot of stress on my shoulders another thing bothering me would be losing almost all my friends (I'm using real names) I've lost a good friends of mine stevie and emma they both were always there for me till on day they turn on me and try to get me in trouble with the police but that's another story I've almost lost my bestfriend landon to rumors they have spread but I haven't and the only one after that would be my boyfriend who I hope is staying with my for awhile already been together almost 9 months but really that doesn't compare to my mom I already said that my parents don't really expect me but my mom hates me and is always threatening to leave because of me and I know o really shouldn't say this but sometimes I wish she would seriosly leave lufe would be better I really wish she wasn't my mom I'm just never good enough for her or anyone really I'm sorry you had to read this

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