What happens is that I'm really close with my dad he's a big part of.my life and means the world to me but my mom.....she's against me and my dad can't take it anymore I can't take it anymore my dad is real with me and I don't think he tries to keep anything from me and only me I'm the oldest and my two younger brothers are immature and would tell my mom but with me he vents today he was talking about how he just can't handle my mom anymore and maybe a divorce and tbh it would be the best my dad is depressed and has been for a long time his medicine doesn't really help I need medicine I'm just to afraid to ask plus we can't afford it old why I'm telling people this ig this is basically my journal for all my thoughts my mom has told us to call PCS (child protective services) to get us taken away that would crush my dad. My dad is in the national guard and if often gone for a couple days at a time which is when we are left with her my mom it's scares me and I never leave my room it's just hard....living in a family like this where I'm personally being bullied by my mom just to go.to school and get bullied there it's an endless loop making me miserable sometimes I feel like cutting myself and seeing if she cares and she doesn't I've walked around in shorts with them on my ankle and she could care less I wish me and my dad could live just me and him it would be great....but sadly it's not like that....at least not yet heh heh

I'm sorry you red my depressing shit I guess I'm just blowing steam bye guys