It gets so frustrating, being alone in the clutches of the demons inside you.

They make you feel worthless a waste of everything and sad and lonely, it gets scarier the more you let them take over you.

It makes you numb, it makes you want to break things, vent out your anger and scream.

You are afraid to be in your own company, you want someone to hold you and make you forget everything going on inside you.

But you look around and there's no one you can rush to, everyone is too busy in their own worlds to care about you.

You want people to understand you but all they see is a quiet one who often bursts like a volcano.

They fail to understand you beyond your mask and it hurts more than you could imagine it breaks your heart into millions of pieces

So at the end you are still left fighting your demons alone with no one to stand by you, having faith in you.

You fight as much as you can.

Because you feel like you're strong enough for it, but at a point you see yourself failing.

And yet, there's nothing you can do but keep fighting weakly and slowly giving up and let yourself be a victim of your dark sides but somewhere in your heart you're still hoping for a miracle.

And it kills you even more when your own people fail to understand you. 

You can't explain how you feel so you just expect them to understand...

But they don't.