This is gonna sounds really dumb, but even before I was in 1st grade, I've wanted to be in high school. I was born in Qatar in an American school, so I knew that there was a chance I could actually go. 

At 9, we moved to Texas (yeah I know it's like the worst state ever for rights but I was blissfully ignorant don't @ me). It made me even more excited, since I knew that I'd definitely be able to go to High school. Needless to say, I was ecstatic. For 4-5 years, I worked on my life there. I was pretty happy, aside from some controversial stuff I'm not getting into today. I know that a lot of people here hate high school and the very idea of it (at least that's what they say), I was a social butterfly that didn't think of the bad stuff. So overall, very excited for high school.

Then we moved to this hell hole. 

I'm not dissing Ireland when I say this, I'm just dissing the shitty, old, crumbling town I live in. My nickname for it isn't 'grey mush town' for nothing.

The Irish education system doesn't have high school. We have primary and secondly school. I'm in 3rd year, which would be a freshman at high school. Unlike freshmen, 3rd years have mock exams. More importantly, there's no prom. 

After 1st year, when all the bullying and isolating took place (again, not getting into that today), my anxiety and all the other shit came in. I was too scared to go to Rev's (basically a night club for 12-17's. Shit's wild.) alone, and I didn't have any friends to go with. 

Basically, I didn't go out much, or get to do anything social. 

Every year for 3rd years, there's a Hunt Ball. It's basically Irish junior prom. They'll be hosting it at the town hotel instead of a gym, so that means all the schools surrounding it will be going. It's a pretty big thing. 

I would probably trade my left arm to go into this thing, but there's a lot of problems.

1. My crippling social anxiety 

2. My fucked up arms

3. The girls/previous bullies from my old school

4. The fact that I have no date and can't talk to girls

5. My friends in school are either not going at all, or have a date.

6. I've basically been living under a rock and don't know anything about current events. (No small talk skills.)

7. I'm like, a huge loser, so I'll probably be alone all night eating pretzels 

Tickets will sell out pretty quickly, and I have two months to solve literally everything that's  wrong with me. I'm definitely not giving up any of this shit soon, so fuck. 

That's all for now.