[If you are legitimately only here for the artwork, you can go ahead and just skip this chapter hahaaaaa]

I guess this has constantly been on my mind for about a year now and I guess I just wanna tell it to someone,,

I know that, throughout life, you're told that you need to have your own hopes and aspirations for your futures,,and that they should be generally bug aspirations so you might succeed,,but-

I feel like my aspirations are too big, and that there's absolutely no hope of me achieving them,,

Now, I know what you're going to say. You're going to tell me what anyone would; "Nothing is going to be impossible unless you tell yourself you can't do it."

But I've already heard that,,countless times,,and I'm still skeptical,,

I know I've told some of you that I plan on being an animator and making my own cartoon,,and that I even have my cartoon plotted out to an extent

But I'm worried,,

I mean, it would take forever to list all of my concerns, so let me just state those that worry me most,,

First, I'm worried I won't even have the courage to pitch the show to a network,, If you've met me in person, you know that I'm a very,, very antisocial, introverted, shy, self-conscious person,,

And I'm worried I won't be able to overcome that in order to pitch the cartoon,, I'm worried I'll be too afraid of disapproval to even tell them about it

And then,, if I do succeed in pitching it,, I'm worried they won't air it,,

I feel like my idea is too stereotypical and generic, and I feel like that would cause them to turn down my cartoon,,

Or I'm worried they'll say it's too much like an already existing show, and that they'd only think I made a cheap copy,,

I just don't know what to do, and I don't know what to think,,

PLUS, I'm worried that even in college I won't be able to take the classes necessary for producing a cartoon in the future, and that I'll have to do something entirely different with my life,,

I'm just scared of the future, you know??

I don't know what to say, don't know what to do, and I don't know how to feel.

I guess I just need someone to hear this,, maybe give me support,, maybe advice,,

I don't know if this will help me,, but I figured it was worth a small shot,,