You know when you're on a call with your "friends" and they're not paying attention to you? And even though you're upset about it, you're not even trying to talk and it's mainly your fault that you're being ignored?

Well that's happening to me now.

And I spent half the day in my room with my door closed, on my floor with my mascara running down my face and crying so hard that I'm gasping for breath because I miss him.

I'm trying to let go but I can't because he was the first person to love me for me and just-

Anyways, I tuned my new ukulele just now (mic on mute), left the call, and came back. No "oh Emma's back", though I'm not surprised, since I've made zero effort to be heard.

I don't want to face school once winter break is over...

Back to being alone...