So after nearly having a breakdown and panic attack while on a Skype call, I managed to sing for someone!

Like I had to sit and just take deep breaths for five minutes, close my eyes and tell myself repeatedly that it wasn't a big deal, I did it!

While he was warming up and practicing a song on his guitar, I watched my hands shake and bit back tears. I don't know why I was so scared, since I've sang on multiple occasions for someone irl. It was different this time.

What scared me the most though, was that I almost passed out while on the call with him. The only reason I didn't, was because he kept talking to me, making sure I was still awake, because I had told him I felt like I was going to faint.

When I did sing, my voice was shaking, and I had to stop about four times to calm down.

If you guys are interested in hearing me sing, I'll post a video on my singing YouTube channel, and link it here. 

I sang Can't Help Falling In Love for him, and he sang with me. I was really emotional after I finished, and had to take a few deep breaths so I wouldn't cry.

I just... this is a theory I have, and I hope it's true, but I think he likes me.

He asked for a picture of me to 'show his piano' (dead serious, that's what he said) and when I sent it to him, I said 'omg i look so awkward'. He replies with 'Beautifully awkward.' and sends a picture of himself, like he promised.

He asked me to learn Can't Help Falling In Love. If you don't know, here's the lyrics:

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay?
Would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you?Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with youLike a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you

Sound like he's trying to tell me something? Thought so. When I was on the verge of a panic attack, he smiles and goes 'you don't have to do this if you don't want. i don't ever want to force you to do something that makes you uncomfortable. there's no need to be nervous about this; i won't judge you.' After I repeatedly said 'i want to' he laughed lightly and said 'you need a hug? sounds like your week was pretty stressful' and brings his phone to his chest like he's hugging it.

Everything he'll say to me makes me smile. He asked me how my week was, and I sighed. 'that bad, huh? well, you've got the weekend to relax. if you need to talk about anything, i'm here'. He cares so, so much.

Well, I need to go calm down, I just remembered something and I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown. 

Love you guys! <3