SO UH

I may have found a new ship?!!

I was quietly screeching when we were going too fast for anyone to hear me, and internally screaming while also lowkey hyperventilating because he had HIS DAMN ARM AROUND HER AND SHE WAS KINDA LEANING INTO HIM AND-

*deep breath*

If they go out on a date, I WILL FUCKING FANGIRL, DIE, AND YOU ALL WILL BE INVITED TO MY DAMN FUNERAL.

What made it better, is he was carrying her in the water, and he was dancing and singing for the entire world to hear, so he will be very good to her.

So uh, I'm kind of sobbing because his name is Caleb, and I love that name, SHE IS PAN AND IM P SURE HE IS PAN (I was told he was bi after I wrote this but then told that she heard he was pan so imma keep it the way it is)TOO

And she heard him say that HE LIKES HER so that means me screaming

But what makes it better, is that he's super tall and she's short.

So the three of us, Caleb myself and her other friend Alyssa, we kneeling and they were playing 'pass the gay' instead of hot potato so I was wheezing over there, not sure of my sexuality

So yeah basically I was on a boat since 11:15 ish and got off around 5:30 so I was in the 90 fucking degree OVEN that is Florida all day

My hair was a tangled mess (reason 52 why I hate my hair)

I got sunburned

I witnessed a new ship possibly happening

I defended iced coffee

I saved bri as she floated downriver

Almost choked on river water when Caleb started screaming rock song lyrics

Watched in confusion as Caleb and Alyssa had an ASL conversation

Ruined my vocal cords from screaming sm

Bough heaven (shaved ice)

Screamed over the doggies and corgi

Saw a lot of dolphins

Fell 2 times in the water

got a new father: Forklift daddy or daddy forklift

Screamed over a carrera

Screamed over a Porsche

Screamed over a race car

Screamed over cars in general

Broke down in the shower because I'm not going to see my friends at all this year

Cried because I listened to the song called I will follow you into the dark

https://youtu.be/NDHY1D0tKRA

Sobbed because anxiety is a bitch

Thought about how much I want to kms because depression

Remembered that I'll be alone and have no friends at school because trust issues

Told myself I was gonna fail school because all of self confidence

Hated myself in general

Nearly killed someone with my hair

And yeah.