Nisha's pov

Knock!! Knock !!

"Nisha open the door."

More knocks sounded from the other side of door but I stood on my ground , Ben looked at me with sigh and went back to his doggy bed like I m a impossible Case.

Sue you , you little fur bastard

" Nisha Ahuja I m saying for the last time open the Damm door before I break it." His stern deathly voice come from the other side , for a moment I almost gave in but no I not going there.

Today morning Ishaan suddenly told me that we are going to see a therapist for my nightmares, and almost immediately I freaked out and locked myself iny room.

"Noo I m not going there , do whatever the hell you want , and I promise you that if you break this door down I m going to jump from the balcony escape from here." I shouted back at him , hell with him and his security.

There was a silence for sometimes from the other side maybe he left knowing very well what I m capable off.

" Nisha." His voice come again but this time more soft like a whisper in the wind which caressed my heart.

"It's okay I won't force you to go with me but at least tell me the reason, if you don't let me enter in your world I won't be able to fight your demon's." He said, his words touched something deep inside of me and for a moment I was scared because he was reading me like a open book , reading the hidden scar of my soul.

Sometimes the amount of trust I have put on him scares me to the core , I have never close to anyone other then maa , she was the only one with whom I could always lay my vulnerability without any fear ,

But I don't know there is something about Ishaan which tell me that no matter what he will never break my trust , I don't what it is which makes him Soo trustable to me,

His glares

His scoldings and never ending lectures

The way he cares for me without showing it ,

The way he gathered my broken pieces,

The way he gave shelter to my vulnerable self without uttering a single word .

The way he tolerate my every tantrums and annoying stunts ,

I don't know.

I walked closer to the door and touched the wood with fingers, " I..I..m..scared Ishaan..." I finally told him closing my eyes.

" Even when I will be there," he asked me , there was hint of accusing there that I don't trust him.

Oh Ishaan how can I make you understand it's my own self I m scared of.

"It's not about you Ishaan,....i can't endure the that night again, I don't have that much strength in me to relive it." I told with my emotions chocked up in my throat,

"Today you might feel it horrible Nisha but if you won't let those out you will suffocate more , let them out Nisha I promise you that I will be there with you and if you don't like it I won't ever tell you to go there,." He said to me his voice held a promise and assureness.

I took a deep breath and opened the door, there he was standing with a frown on his beautiful face , looking at him make me feel secured , just being in his presence can calm my heart and make me vulnerable at the same time.

For the whole he maybe a fire but for Nisha Ahuja's life he was the light of her darkness.

He walked towards me and entwined our fingers , there was no expression on his face , no smile, but yet the softness in those dark orbs was enough for me to tightened my hold on him.

"Shall we." He asked and I nodded.

End of nisha's pov

Authors pov

The drive to hospital was filled with Nisha's nervous blabbering,

" Ishaan what if the therapist say that I m mentally ill ."

"Ishaan what if they send me to Psychiatric hospital."

" What will I do there alone."

"Who will take care of Ben ,"

" Who will irritate you."

" Who will teach Jaiden to be less robotic."

"Who will give me chocolate and ice cream there."

Ishaan was sure that by the time they will reach hospital, he himself will need a therapist to control his anger, he stopped the car in the parking of the hospital and turned towards Nisha who was looking at the hospital with wide eyes.

She opened her mouth but Ishaan immediately placed his hand on lips, " one more word Nisha and I while throw you from the top of that building, Soo shush." He told her glaring.

She nodded with heated cheeks, her milky chubby cheeks were burning with Rosy color , Nisha was sure that never in her life she has blushed this much , the contact of his fingers on her lips were giving Nisha some inappropriate images in mind which she was sure that wre not suitable for either of them.

Ishaan noticed her flaming cheeks and and got confused, he raised a eyebrow at her and gestured with eyes to her cheeks, Nisha gestured back with eyes to fingers on lips,

Realization shoot through him , he immediately withdrawed his hands and cleared his throat awkwardly , god Ishaan just shoot yourself already, fuck you Ishaan thought closing his eyes,

Nisha saw Ishaan awkwardness she thought to make it better for him and and hooped out of the car , she went on his side and opened the door,

"Common common let's get this over with or I m going to run from here ." She told him hurriedly pulling his arm.

Ishaan glared at her and got out of the car, they went inside the hospital, Nisha was holding his hand tightly , it was the first time she was stepping inside a hospital after that tragic night , Nisha was holding his hand tightly like a child while her head was bowed , she didn't wanted to remember it again.

Ishaan talked with the receptionist about their appointment and they were told to wait for sometimes, Ishaan made her sit in one of the waiting area chairs and kneeled infront of her holding her hand ," hey everything will be alright." He told her softly rubbing his thumb on her palm.

She nodded looking at his eyes, they name was called soon and Nisha took a deep breath, she stood up and followed Ishaan. They entered inside the cabin, the middle aged doctor smiled seeing Ishaan.

" Good morning Ishaan, it's been a long time since I saw , years maybe, how have you been." The doctor asked him with a warm smile.

Ishaan nodded," good morning doctor Evans , I have been good from past few years." Ishaan told him , doctor Evans has known Ishaan from his younger days and Ishaan know that doctor Evans was best in his job and he wanted best for Nisha.

Doctor Evans looked at Nisha and light teasing glint glowed on his aged eyes ," Soo is this young lady you have told me about , Nisha right ." Doctor Evans asked directing a warm smile towards Nisha.

Nisha smiled lightly almost hesitated, Ishaan pulled out a chair for her and Nisha sat there looking at him with uncertainty.

"Soo Ms.Nisha Ishaan told me everything, and I m really sorry for you your mother," Mr.Evans said with sincerity.

Nisha nodded looking down," but I m really looking forward to talking with you today, you might be a really special and interesting person if you have Singhaniya wrapped around your finger, " the doctor said Chuckling lightly.

Nisha cheeks burned for the second time that day, she looked at Ishaan from the corner of her eyes and he looked really pissed , she choose not to rill him more.

Ishaan vain throbbed if something he hated about doctor Evans was his filterless mouth and carefree attitude, if he was not greatfull to the doctor for helping him then he would have happily made him learn that who Ishaan Singhaniya really was.

" Soo without further delay let start chat Ms.Nisha, Ishaan could you wait for us in the other room, you can watch her from there but can't hear." The doctor asked Ishaan.

Ishaan nodded and got up but the tight hold on his hand stopped him , he looked at Nisha who was looking at him with Soo much vulnerability, but he know that him being there would be not good for the therapy, " don't leave." Nisha whispered.

"I didn't hold your hand to leave it Nisha," he told her with sincerity, Nisha looked at him she could clearly read in his eyes I m here she knows he will be just besides that door , taking a deep breath she left his hand.

Ishaan walked to the other room , standing infront the glass wall which separated them , he looked at Nisha, he could see that she was nervous, during the whole process he would blink his eyes whenever she will look in to eyes for assureness, there was some moments where she would start to panic and it almost gave Ishaan heart attack, finally the session was finished and Ishaan took a breath of relief.

He walked towards them , and Nisha looked at him , she didn't smiled or said she just stood up and throwed her arms around him making him freeze. But she didn't react she just hugged tightly rested her forehead on his chest.

Doctor Evans hide a smrik, he could see that Ishaan Singhaniya has finally got some same level as him.

" Ni....."

" Shut up , just let me hug , hugs help in calming down and it is scientifically proven,." Nisha mumbled in his chest , she could feel his his rapidly beating heart.

Ishaan relaxed his posture but didn't hugged her back, he let her hold him as much she wanted, after sometime she slowly detached herself from him , she peaked a glance at him and he was looking away glaring at the wall.

Doctor Evans cleared his throat," Nisha could you wait outside for sometimes I need to talk to Ishaan." He asked, Nisha nodded she stole another glance at him and left the cabin.

"Ishaan sit I have to tell you something important about Nisha." Doctor said seriously, all humour gone , gesturing Ishaan to take a sit while sat himself.

Ishaan took a sit , he could feel something serious as he never saw doctor Evans Soo serious.

" Ishaan as much as I heard from Nisha, it seems like her nightmares are not only related to the traumatic death of her mother, it is related with her past, did Nisha told you that she meet with a accident few years back which caused her memory loss." The doctor asked Ishaan, Ishaan nodded.

" From my experience of years I can tell that Nisha is suffering from dissociation." He said taking off his spectacle.

" dissociation." He asked confused.

The doctor nodded," its way out mind handle information, when something traumatic happens which is to much for our mind to handle it disconnect out mind from everything, thoughts , surrounding, identity, feelings, memories. Something happened with with Nisha before accident which was to much for her mind to proceed, but those events are still fresh in her subconscious mind," doctor Evans explained.

By the time the doctor was finished Ishaan eyes was colder then a stormy night , his mind was only registering one thing that someone has her hurt her , hurt Soo much that she thought that shutting of herself will be better, he wanted nothing more then to show that person hell.

"Isn't there anyway for her memories to come back." Ishaan asked his voice deathly cold , Doctor Evan was surprised seeing Ishaan reaction, he could easily feel that without Ishaan knowing it he has given Nisha a huge place in his world.

"There is Ishaan, infact they are many ways to bring back her memories but I would suggest against it , because forcefully trying bring back her memories can have a deathly consequences from damaging her mentally to physical effect, it can lead to coma to." Doctor said.

And for the first time after So many years Ishaan was scared, scared to lose the chirping bubbly girl who had become his responsibility," no I don't care if she gets her memories back ever again, infact I would prefer her to never have her memories back, she doesn't need to remember her terrific past , one tragic incident is enough for her." Ishaan told him, but one thing was decided, Ishaan will dig Nisha's past and Soo help the person who has hurt her because death was looming over.

Only if Ishaan had known that digging her past was the first step of shattering them both.

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