My ceiling in my bedroom has been the most exciting spectacle that I have seen for the past few days. Since my car is still at the pack house, I texted mom and told her I was sleeping at Lexi's. That way she won't be looking for me in the house and I can be alone and in peace. I don't want to be questioned right now.

Since that night I haven't done much of anything. I go to the bathroom on occasion, making sure Mom and Will are are out of the house or gone for work when I go. I just want to be alone. I don't want to think, I don't even want to be here anymore.

To my surprise Lexi has only called me three times. Jayden on the other hand has been calling me almost non stop. I don't know why he wants to talk to me so badly? Actually now that I think about it, he probably wants to return my car keys. I will have to pick them up at some point. Maybe Lexi can do it for me.

I haven't eaten in two days. I don't feel hungry but I need to eat. Since mom and Will are at work, now is probably the best time to grab some food.

I slowly get off my bed and remove the chair from under the door handle. I unlock the door and make my way to the kitchen.

I search the cabinets for something light and that goes down easy. There really isn't anything, so then I check the fridge. I see yogurt and I decide that's my best bet. I pull out it out of the fridge and grab a spoon.

I peel off the lid and dig in. It tastes bland, like nothing. At least it goes down easy enough. I dig my spoon in again and go for another bite. I still taste nothing. Well this is getting old fast.

I cap the yogurt and throw it back into the fridge and toss my spoon inside the dish washer. I hear a knock on the door.

That's probably the mailman delivering a package. I walk to the front door and open it up wide. I pause.

Not who I was expecting.

"Sophia." his voice is sweet, and my body finally reacts to something. I just wish it didn't.

"Do you have my keys?" I ask.

Jayden digs into his pocket and pulls out my keys handing them to me. Well glad that is done and over with. I go to shut the door.

A huge hand collides with my door, preventing me from closing it. I'm too weak to fight back. I give up and look up into his eyes. Big mistake girl, turn away!

But I can't. His emerald eyes have captured my own brown ones. I'm lost in them. For the first time in a few days, my heart starts to beat rapidly. I feel my cheeks flush a light pink. Oh man... This is not what I wanted. After finally taking one step forward in my life, this just set me back eight steps.

He pushes the door open and welcomes himself into my home. Yeah, that's fine, come on in buddy...

"Sophia we need to talk. That was nothing at all what it looked like."

I just stare at him. He thinks I'm dumb! I don't think he realizes I'm not mad at him. Maybe I should explain.

"I'm not mad at you Jayden." I say.

He looks at me shocked for a moment, "Wait, you're not?"

"No. You're doing what you have to do to become Alpha. It runs in your blood. I don't want to be the one to hold you back. Plus, it's not like we could ever mate anyway. We have too many differences. The fates made a mistake big time with us."

He stares at me. I'm not really sure what he is feeling. He is doing a good job masking it.

"Do you really think that?" He asks, his face growing serious and cold. The way he used to look at me when he didn't accept me as a mate. It's unsettling to say the least. I feel my heart ache at the thought of him going back to being the person he was before. Treating me like I don't exist again. 

I turn my head away. I mean the fates had to have made a mistake. Jayden is going to do great things in his life. He is going to be the best Alpha this pack has ever seen. Plus, I'm not even allowed to have a mate, why would he be stuck with me out of all people? Finally, I nod my head, replying to his question.

"Oh." He hesitates for a moment then adds, "Well I still want you to know that what you saw wasn't what you thought. I was pissed after talking to my dad so I went up to my room to take a nap. I slept in my boxers and I awoke to Ashley coming into my room with just undergarments on. I freaked out and grabbed one of my shirts to give to her to cover up. That's when you knocked. I didn't know who it was and I just threw on some shorts and answered the door."

That's what happened? No, he is making it up. He just wants to get me back so he can use me until he doesn't need me anymore.

Wait. Stop.

What am I thinking? This is Jayden. The one who helped find me. The one that didn't sleep at all until I was safe in his arms. He would never use me.

Ugh. I am so confused! What is happening to my life? It's a freaking roller coaster.

"I'm going to go now."

"Wait." I speak before I can even think.

Is this what I want- him to stay here with me? Yes. Is it what is necessary though? No.

"Jayden... The truth is I'm lost without you. I... I just don't know if I'm right for you. You need to be happy and raise a family in this pack. It's where your family is, and I won't take that from you."

Jayden turns in my direction. I look up into his eyes and that's when it hits me. How selfish I have been. Jayden is hurting just as much as me, if not more. Here I am neglecting him. That's not what he needs. He needs help getting through this too. He needs guidance.

"Soph, I can't be without you. I don't care about these stupid laws anymore. You're more kind and stronger than any girl in this pack, and you would make the perfect Luna, my perfect Luna. I won't give that up. If my dad can't see past this law, then he won't have a successor. If I can't be with you then I don't want to lead this pack."

I stare up into his sincere eyes. He is speaking from his heart. This is what he wants. He actually wants to be with me, even if that means he can't lead the pack... Wow.

My heart swells at the fact that he cares for me this much. I realize that I'm just staring at him like a loser, I feel my cheeks blush and I bite my lip nervously.

He finally smirks and struts over to me, trapping me between him and the wall behind me. "What did I tell you about that lip of yours." He says.

He reaches up and pulls my chin gently, releasing my lip from my teeth. I just stare up at him. Longing for his lips to touch mine. It has been so long since we have shared an actual kiss.

I see something click in his eyes and he starts to push away from the wall. I whimper to myself. Geez! That's the second time he has done that. Is there something wrong with me? Clearly not, he just told me how much he cared, what's the deal?

"Why won't you kiss me?" I ask quietly, voicing my thoughts.

Did I just ask that out loud? Oh! How embarrassing....

Jayden sighs but still doesn't look at me. I pout out my bottom lip. I hate when people ignore me, especially on such an embarrassing question!

I glance down in disappointment. Maybe he just wasn't in the mood to kiss me... He probably doesn't get as attracted to me as I get to him. Understandable, he is practically a god and I'm pretty normal.

"Do you want something to eat?" I ask him.

"No thanks, I just had lunch." He says.

I nod and walk toward the living room. I grab the remote from the coffee table and plop onto the couch. That's when I notice two things. One, I'm not wearing my bra under my sweatshirt and two, I'm still in my panties! Crap! Wow I'm such an awkward person!

Jayden joins me on the couch. I suppose it doesn't matter now, he has already seen me like this for long enough. Changing now would be pointless.

"Anything in particular you want to watch?" I ask.

"I'm feeling a good comedy movie."

I smile and flick through the movies on On Demand. To my luck my mom and Will ordered We're the Millers last night. I click on the movie without even asking Jayden if that's what he wanted to watch. I know he will enjoy it, I could hear mom and Will laughing their butts off last night.

I hop off the couch and flick the lights off. When I get back Jayden has his shoes off and he is slouched in the corner seat of the couch! The jerk took my seat!

I sit down next to him and say, "Way to take my seat as I turned the lights off!"

He laughs and says, "You snooze you lose sweetheart."

I would continue to argue with him but I decide to choose a different tactic, my cute pout. If my mom taught me anything, it's how to get the things I want with my puppy dog eyes.

I pout out my bottom lip and turn toward the tv. I hear Jayden laugh.

"Hey no pouting we are watching a comedy!"

I continue to pout, ignoring him.

"Go ahead. Keep doing it, I dare you."

So I do. What is he going to do about it!? He took my seat and I want it back. Since he is stronger than me it's all I can do-

His fingers meet my sides and he starts to tickle me! I start laughing and roll back onto the couch. I try to fight him but he continues! I feel tears spring to my eyes as the tickling gets painful.

"Okay okay! I won't pout!" I shout.

"Promise?"

"Yes!" I scream.

Finally the tickling dies down and I start to catch my breath. What a jerk! Tickling me because of my pouting. I open my eyes and see a smiling Jayden laying over top of me.

The feeling oh his body over mine sends sparks and tingles throughout my body. Can't say I hate it. Actually I kind of like it, a lot. He's so close. I feel my cheeks blush slightly and I bite my lip.

That's when his face gets serious. He stares down at my lips then back at my eyes. I notice the shift in color from emerald to black back to emerald. He is hesitant for a moment.

Oh no, you're not getting away this time. I can see the desire in his eyes, I just don't know what is causing him to hesitate. 

I stare deep into his eyes, showing him my longing and desire for him. Then I whisper, "Kiss me."

And he does. His lips crash to mine and I moan from the simple touch of of our lips. Sparks fly through my skin. I reach up to his face, savoring every piece of of this moment.

My fingers trail up to his hair and I pull it gently. He lets out a satisfied growl. He manages to slip his tongue into my mouth and we fight for dominance. He wins and deepens the kiss as he lies over me.

I feel my core heat up and I want more. I lightly push on his chest and he sits up, taking me with him without breaking the kiss. He sits back against the couch and I straddle his waist. Now its my turn to be the dominant one.

I deepen the kiss and trail my fingers over his chest. I continue down and I can feel the definition of each abb. God he is so sexy. I sit down in his lap and a strong desire runs through me. He growls an flips me over so I'm now sitting on the couch. We continue our heated kiss.

Suddenly I hear a click followed by a door opening. Jayden immediately breaks our kiss and flops over onto the corner seat and smirks at me. I smirk back then I hear,

"Sophia?"

"In here mom." I say.

Mom walks into the living room and sees Jayden and I sitting on the couch. She looks at what I'm wearing and raises an eyebrow. I feel my cheeks flush.

"Mom!" I shout. "It's not what it looks like!"

"Sure hunny... Well it was nice seeing you Jayden! I hope you stay for dinner I'm making lasagna!" She says as she wanders out of the living room.

"It's good to see you too Mrs. Hail!"

"Rachel!" She shouts back. He laughs.

Then she is gone. I turn to Jayden and frown.

"How is it that you still got the corner seat!?" I say, flabbergasted that I didn't take the spot when I had the chance.

"You're too slow." He shrugs and I frown. "Kidding! Come here."

He reaches out and drags me to him so that I am lying on his chest. Okay, maybe this is better than the corner seat. I nuzzle my head into him gently as he strokes my hair and runs his fingers through it. Oh I could stay like this forever.