Who wants angst?

Okay.. who wants Logan angst?

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Pattons pov:

I placed my hand around the door handle, my other occupied a cup of green tea (try it) , it usually helped him calm down.

I take a moment to plan what I was going to say, especially when he was like this, he's been married to his husband for 3 years and were thinking of adopting a child named Holmes, he was so happy and was a lot more open about his emotions, his anxiety and hated of emotions had completely been washed away, it took 5 seconds for that to stop.  He'd been walking home with his lover , both very happy after a successful date, when he walked in front of a car , unknowingly his partner grabbed him and pulled him out of the way.

Sacrificing himself.

I brush away tears, it took 5 seconds for everything to come back, his hatred and lack of emotions, his anger , he self hate... everything came back so much worse. It was horrible seeing him in such a state.

The worst part were the people, people told him to get over it , "it's been weeks! Get over it" they said, people talked about it like they'd only know each other for a day at most, not realising what had happened.

And he'd stopped defending himself, started hating himself so much , talking about how he should of been careful and should of died instead.

I take a deep breath.

I twist the door handle, the dark room filling with light, I see a unmoving figure on the bed.

I close the door and sit by the nightstand, placing the tea down and flipping on the light, getting a better look at him.

His face was pale , but red and puffy round his eyes, his cheeks were stained with tears, his once bright blue crystal like eyes were dull and blank, his stare being wiped of anything , and just gazing on the black fabric in front of him.

"Hi... p...pat..." he murmurs, his hand staying clenched on the black hoodie in front of him, he brings it up to his mouth, just about covering the base of his nose,

"Hiya lo, how you holding up?" I sooth, putting my hand on his shoulder. He stiffens but relaxes a few seconds after.

"... I...I'm rec... recovering." He whispers, tears threatening his abused eyes.

I smile, placing both my hands in my lap.

"I made you some tea, if you feeling like it, me and Roman are going to watch a movie in a bit, you can join us if you like." I tilt my head, giving him the brightest smile I could muster.

It worked because I say his cheeks raise , and I bet behind that hoodie, he smiled.

"Thanks pat.." He said, he voice a little happier.

Logan's pov.

I see Patton nod, stand up and leave.

I should go and watch a movie with them and try to get out of bed.. but I'm just feeling tired. I haven't slept fully in weeks and the only time I have slept it for 15 minuets at make , broken, of course.

I pull the hoodie closer, it's one of the only things I have left of him , except the ring of course.

I let his scent and the green teas fill my nose, slowly bringing me too sleep..

"We should go to that café more often , I lovvve the coffee there!" Virgil exclaimed, dragging out the "v" in love, I smile gently , me and him both crossing the road..

"It was.. satisfactory." I see his face suddenly drop. He looked panicked and he quickly dashed next to me , I couldn't even keep up with his reflexes, he grabbed my shirt I was wearing and threw me onto the pavement. I look up , shock masking most of the pain, his eyes were filled with panic sadness and pain. He smiled for a split second..

SCEEEEEEECH!

A car hit him, the force being enough to make him hit a parked car on the side of the road.

Tears quickly welled up in my eyes as I realised what Happened.

"VIRGIL!" I yell, quickly pushing myself of the pavement to his side.  Blood was quickly pouring out of him.

Be logical, you can save him..

I quickly turn his head to the left, I forgot the position so I had to deal with what I had, sobs were slowly breaking my breathing and tears rolled down my cheeks, I put pressure on the major wounds.

I stopped, so did his blood flow , the situation slowly setting in.

"No.. nononono PLEASE!" I screamed, quickly placing both my hands on his chest. Tears falling onto my arms as his face stared to pale and he slowly became stiff.

1-2-3-4...

I tried to keep in beat.

5-6-7-7... -8?

I..

8-8-9-10-11

I couldn't save him...

My arms gave way and I crumpled onto his chest. Sirens filling my ears as I felt hands pulling me away from the body, a blanket covered my shoulders as people started asking me questions..

It quickly set in...

He's gone..

I woke up gasping, tears plummeting down my chin and onto the mattress.

A figure laid beside me.. his dark chocolate hair, curled around his pale face. I felt my body stiff.

"Virgil?"

It turned to me, he turned to me.. his brown eyes slowly opening and his lips curled into a smiles, a calm normal smile.

"It was just a dream lo, you know I wouldn't let you wake up alone. " he chuckled,and reached for my cheeks, I complied and let him kiss my forehead.

It was a dream, he's okay.

"Thank you." I smiled. He tilts his head.

"For what?"

"I'm thankful for the time we spent together, I never told you how much I appreciate you, I love every moment we spend together and I hope I never have to let go of you, I love y-"

I woke up again.

This time on my side, no one next to me, just me alone , clutching his hoodie.

I can't do this anymore..

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I made myself cry at my own fanfic